"Walkin' in Memphis, but do I really feel the way I feel?"
Today wasn't a good day, emotion wise. I just seem to be getting more depressed. And homesick. I haven't felt homesick for Nashville in a LONG time, months, maybe. Of course, I've always missed it, especially being ripped away from it like I was, but today it hit me full in the face. Or rather, the heart. I was talking to a good friend of mine in Nashville, Sarah (puffylion) today, and she was telling me about her anniversary plans she has with her boyfriend. I asked her where they were going, and she said probably out to dinner. At a place called Johnny Rocket's. That's when I felt very homesick, when she mentioned that restaraunt. Johnny Rocket's, for those of you who don't know, is in the middle of Opry Mills Mall, in Nashville. Opry Mills was one of my favorite places to just hang out, with Beth (bloodykittytear) and Christina (stlbabi). Infact, some of my best memories with Christina are in that mall. Anyway, when Sarah mentioned Johnny Rocket's, this sensation came over me, and it was like I was back in Opry Mills, and I could smell the food in the food court, and I could see the tile on the floor. I know it sounds crazy, but I just... I need to be back there again. Not just the mall, but Nashville. It's not very fair to be ripped away from your friends, and your home, and all of your memories with only maybe a week's notice. And we've lived here for 1 year, and I'm still bitter about it. I just want to, like, go to sleep and wake up in my old room... And honestly I want to cry right now.
"Touched down in the land of the Delta Blues, in the middle of the pouring rain..."
And, on top of all that, I think I want to get back together with my ex boyfriend, the one I recently broke up with. For some stupid, illogical reason, I miss him. It drives me crazy to think that he's talking to other girls, I mean, flirting with them and treating them the way he used to treat me, before we started dating. Actually, he treated me better before we started going out, and after we broke up. And now I'm not sure if we can even be friends. I don't have a problem with it, but he... I don't know. I just don't know.
"Then I'm walkin' in Memphis, walkin' with my feet ten feet off of Beale..."
When we first broke up, he wanted to go out again, but I wouldn't even consider it, because he cheated on me. But now... I AM considering it, but it may be too late. And what's worse is, I really shouldn't be wanting him back. He wasn't exactly the best boyfriend, after all. I need to be slapped. Seriously.
"Walkin' in Memphis, but do I really feel the way I feel..."
So much drama. On top of everything that's happening with bloodykittytear, there's THAT that I just wrote about. I just... I don't know what to do. These things that are happening are things I can't control, and I HATE it when I can't control my own damn life. And when I can't help the people I love. I want to write a song, or a poem or something, but I just don't know if I have it in me.
"...in the middle of the pourin' rain..."
~Katie
"Touched down in the land of the Delta Blues, in the middle of the pouring rain..."
And, on top of all that, I think I want to get back together with my ex boyfriend, the one I recently broke up with. For some stupid, illogical reason, I miss him. It drives me crazy to think that he's talking to other girls, I mean, flirting with them and treating them the way he used to treat me, before we started dating. Actually, he treated me better before we started going out, and after we broke up. And now I'm not sure if we can even be friends. I don't have a problem with it, but he... I don't know. I just don't know.
"Then I'm walkin' in Memphis, walkin' with my feet ten feet off of Beale..."
When we first broke up, he wanted to go out again, but I wouldn't even consider it, because he cheated on me. But now... I AM considering it, but it may be too late. And what's worse is, I really shouldn't be wanting him back. He wasn't exactly the best boyfriend, after all. I need to be slapped. Seriously.
"Walkin' in Memphis, but do I really feel the way I feel..."
So much drama. On top of everything that's happening with bloodykittytear, there's THAT that I just wrote about. I just... I don't know what to do. These things that are happening are things I can't control, and I HATE it when I can't control my own damn life. And when I can't help the people I love. I want to write a song, or a poem or something, but I just don't know if I have it in me.
"...in the middle of the pourin' rain..."
~Katie