HERE TAKE IT
I am months behind in schoolwork. But half of it's packed away, and I can't find it because
I still have to unpack and finish my room, but I don't have time in the morning, and I can't at night, because it would make too much noise.
I work every single fucking day for hours and hours for fucking pocket change.
I have to get my kitten fixed and get her shots. I haven't seen her in so long.
I have to finish a fucking novel.
I rarely see my boy, and when we do, we bicker like three year olds.
My top and bottom wisdom teeth are coming on the right side of my mouth full fucking force. My jaw throbs and bleeds and aches, and since I'm so stressed, I have a habit of slicing my front gums open with my lip ring.
I hacked off chunks of skin from the bottom of my feet with a serrated kitchen knife. Calluses that I need. I don't know why. To maybe start over. The sides and bottoms of them are cut open in places, raw, it hurts to stand or walk.
I don't sleep. I just don't. Sometimes, I go to bed. At 4 or 5 in the morning. Then I have to wake up at 8AM, maybe 9.
I'm falling into fucking pieces and it feels like I can't do anything about it.
I still have to unpack and finish my room, but I don't have time in the morning, and I can't at night, because it would make too much noise.
I work every single fucking day for hours and hours for fucking pocket change.
I have to get my kitten fixed and get her shots. I haven't seen her in so long.
I have to finish a fucking novel.
I rarely see my boy, and when we do, we bicker like three year olds.
My top and bottom wisdom teeth are coming on the right side of my mouth full fucking force. My jaw throbs and bleeds and aches, and since I'm so stressed, I have a habit of slicing my front gums open with my lip ring.
I hacked off chunks of skin from the bottom of my feet with a serrated kitchen knife. Calluses that I need. I don't know why. To maybe start over. The sides and bottoms of them are cut open in places, raw, it hurts to stand or walk.
I don't sleep. I just don't. Sometimes, I go to bed. At 4 or 5 in the morning. Then I have to wake up at 8AM, maybe 9.
I'm falling into fucking pieces and it feels like I can't do anything about it.