that didnt last long did it...........

[wreck_simple]

so... i thought things had been good, my depression had been under control, i found a really cool girl to like, and i decided to clean up and stop drinking and smoking... sounds like im on a good track right??? wrong. i dont know why, but christmas was shitty, everyone had someone, and i was all alone, my 13 year old goddamn brother has a girlfriend and im alone, and i cant find anyone that will want me. even though they say they do, i know deep down they really dont want me. why would anyone want me. im nothing, a nobody, a worthless piece of shit. nobody deserves to be stuck with a piece of shit like me. i dont know why i bother to get out of bed anymore. i hope nobody even reads this, cuz i know if you do, youll comment about how nice and cute and sweet i am, and it will make me throw up in my mouth, and ill still be alone, after everyone thinks they said enough to make themselves feel better about me being such a stupid depressed emokid. im sick of myself, im sick of my life. i said i want to move away, but Ryan will still be wherever I go, so I really just want to fucking die right now. i want to be done with life. i dont know why, im just sick of the pain that comes with each empty breath i take.

im sorry for being so emo, and sorry for not knowing how to appreciate a good thing when i have it

im sorry to you all for having to be subjected to this...