Choices

[wrathfulgrape]

- alcohol is bad for me when I am sad. I cannot drink when I am sad because I know I do it to punish myself and hurt myself.
- I have to learn to let it hurt and burn through it.
- the situation I am in is as much my fault as his.
- I have to be angry. I dont know why I cant feel angry but I have to.

I hate pain. But I have to feel it.