updates & mixed emotions... (warning: ...post!)
Well...we had Denise's Bon Voyage and Fundraiser last Thursday. It think it was a success. Here is us at that:
I like that picture. It was difficult planning a fundraiser when what I really wanted to do...and what I'm used to doing, is planning a party. I learned that although it may seem similar, it is a very different ball of wax. Looking back on it, Dee and I felt as though some folks didn't come because of the "Fund-raising" part and I'm sad about that. There was a lot of just celebration that she's going out to accomplish a life goal. Hell, I even danced...on an otherwise empty dance floor! That is a RARE occurrence indeed!
Work has been hard, but overall good. I have tried in every way I know how since I graduated in February to go above and beyond. I want to move up...but also I just want to accomplish things. I want to start really cool projects that positively affect the consumers and organization that I serve...and actually see those projects come to fruition. It's enormously satisfying to see that happen whether or not I move through. It's just hard to hold onto that sense of accomplishment when I come home and struggle so hard to pay for everything. The phrase "nothing worth it is easy" keeps going through my head.
Speaking of a cool project, the Labyrinth has a foundation now...and next Tuesday I'll start drawing out the lines! Here's picks of that in process:
Those are from the roof of our building. I'm looking forward to the day that it's in and I'm working late, so that I can take some time to walk it. Meditation in that place, which has affected me so much...I think it will be a meaningful experience.
I have the sense of the next two years being all about growing to a new level in myself. I was thinking about this the other day. Dee will do what she needs to do, and I'm so proud of her. I also have plans for the next two years. I want to "pull together" what I know to be a better person. When I say "better person", I guess I'm talking about my own personal definition. It's hard to express in words...however I have a stronger sense of it than I ever have. I want to say "yes" to fewer things, but do those fewer things better. I want to choose my projects wisely, rather than on impulse. I intend to grill my sense of judgment and know my limits. Allow time for joy, reflection and relationship building along with personal growth.
So yeah, I guess that's my personal statement about the whole thing. I'm not where I want to be in many ways...but I'm kilometers ahead of where the people in my youth expected, and in deeper into the meaning of life than I ever thought I would be this time around.
Enough heavy Buddha, I'm reading the girl with the dragon tattoo...and I'm totally sucked into it. I did a lot this morning. It's a cheap wine and good story Saturday afternoon.
I like that picture. It was difficult planning a fundraiser when what I really wanted to do...and what I'm used to doing, is planning a party. I learned that although it may seem similar, it is a very different ball of wax. Looking back on it, Dee and I felt as though some folks didn't come because of the "Fund-raising" part and I'm sad about that. There was a lot of just celebration that she's going out to accomplish a life goal. Hell, I even danced...on an otherwise empty dance floor! That is a RARE occurrence indeed!
Work has been hard, but overall good. I have tried in every way I know how since I graduated in February to go above and beyond. I want to move up...but also I just want to accomplish things. I want to start really cool projects that positively affect the consumers and organization that I serve...and actually see those projects come to fruition. It's enormously satisfying to see that happen whether or not I move through. It's just hard to hold onto that sense of accomplishment when I come home and struggle so hard to pay for everything. The phrase "nothing worth it is easy" keeps going through my head.
Speaking of a cool project, the Labyrinth has a foundation now...and next Tuesday I'll start drawing out the lines! Here's picks of that in process:
Those are from the roof of our building. I'm looking forward to the day that it's in and I'm working late, so that I can take some time to walk it. Meditation in that place, which has affected me so much...I think it will be a meaningful experience.
I have the sense of the next two years being all about growing to a new level in myself. I was thinking about this the other day. Dee will do what she needs to do, and I'm so proud of her. I also have plans for the next two years. I want to "pull together" what I know to be a better person. When I say "better person", I guess I'm talking about my own personal definition. It's hard to express in words...however I have a stronger sense of it than I ever have. I want to say "yes" to fewer things, but do those fewer things better. I want to choose my projects wisely, rather than on impulse. I intend to grill my sense of judgment and know my limits. Allow time for joy, reflection and relationship building along with personal growth.
So yeah, I guess that's my personal statement about the whole thing. I'm not where I want to be in many ways...but I'm kilometers ahead of where the people in my youth expected, and in deeper into the meaning of life than I ever thought I would be this time around.
Enough heavy Buddha, I'm reading the girl with the dragon tattoo...and I'm totally sucked into it. I did a lot this morning. It's a cheap wine and good story Saturday afternoon.