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i've been getting worried lately that i'm not really cut out for college.
i have all this reading to do, and when i do it, i don't understand it while i'm reading, even though i really try, and then in class i have no recollection of what i read. i feel like such a fucking dumbass. i feel so fucked for the papers i have to write for next week... and what the hell and i going to do with a history major? become a scholar? i just can't imagine myself writing books and doing research and teaching... oi vey.
is it summer yet??
i have all this reading to do, and when i do it, i don't understand it while i'm reading, even though i really try, and then in class i have no recollection of what i read. i feel like such a fucking dumbass. i feel so fucked for the papers i have to write for next week... and what the hell and i going to do with a history major? become a scholar? i just can't imagine myself writing books and doing research and teaching... oi vey.
is it summer yet??