It's late, I'm throwing an artistic flid. Deal.
Every so often I try to be organised. This means checking dates and commitments and scowling at my bank account. (Closely followed by, 'But I had money - I know I did - I was 150quid up - I was sooo good - where the fekk did it GO? Oh. Oh yeah, winterfest. And there are still people I owe giftings to. Ergh.)
Anyhow. This time it also included the thought of, 'You're attending a jewellery course at the end of March. That will be on your doorstep before you know it. How about you draw up some designs and try to work out what silver and tools and stones you have hidden away?'
This meant three things.
1) scouring etsy, ebay, picture files, whatever, for weird and wonderful pieces of jewellery that really sparked my interest.
2) Writing a list of ideas and drawing little scribbles about stacking rings, secret pendents, working locks, cut-throat razors, medieval quatrifoils, raven wings, bedlam symbols, and double-sided-stone-set-things-of-doom. Also this naturally led to -
3) Utter fekking panic. Because I need a design that I won't fuck up, but also that will teach me things and make the course and my father's money worthwhile.*
*Sigh* I know, it's rather sad really, isn't it?
All evening I've been vacillating between neuron joy and frustration at working out artistic designs and the memory of how pathetically terrified I was going to the college open day and dreading how I'll be when the course comes and I'm there on my own for a week. (Hello punctuation.)
Yeah, yeah, borrowing angst and trouble that may never materialise, I know.
At least I haven't stabbed myself over it - four months back and I would have. Currently I just panic quietly and bitch here when I ought to be sleeping.
On a side note, my feathers are boring me. I need to do something with them. Any ideas?
(I ask in the hope that ideas will prevent me cropping them short and then regretting it.)
Also, any ideas on cool thoughts/themes/stuff for silversmithing? Show me pieces of jewellery that have caught your imagination or tell me thoughts and dreams you wish could be made real...
*= For anyone who has noticed the trend that I seem to be very hung up and twitchy about my father spending money on me, yes, you're totally correct. I am. C'mon, one month he paid my rent and I tried to kill myself - this is a trigger point for me.
Anyhow. This time it also included the thought of, 'You're attending a jewellery course at the end of March. That will be on your doorstep before you know it. How about you draw up some designs and try to work out what silver and tools and stones you have hidden away?'
This meant three things.
1) scouring etsy, ebay, picture files, whatever, for weird and wonderful pieces of jewellery that really sparked my interest.
2) Writing a list of ideas and drawing little scribbles about stacking rings, secret pendents, working locks, cut-throat razors, medieval quatrifoils, raven wings, bedlam symbols, and double-sided-stone-set-things-of-doom. Also this naturally led to -
3) Utter fekking panic. Because I need a design that I won't fuck up, but also that will teach me things and make the course and my father's money worthwhile.*
*Sigh* I know, it's rather sad really, isn't it?
All evening I've been vacillating between neuron joy and frustration at working out artistic designs and the memory of how pathetically terrified I was going to the college open day and dreading how I'll be when the course comes and I'm there on my own for a week. (Hello punctuation.)
Yeah, yeah, borrowing angst and trouble that may never materialise, I know.
At least I haven't stabbed myself over it - four months back and I would have. Currently I just panic quietly and bitch here when I ought to be sleeping.
On a side note, my feathers are boring me. I need to do something with them. Any ideas?
(I ask in the hope that ideas will prevent me cropping them short and then regretting it.)
Also, any ideas on cool thoughts/themes/stuff for silversmithing? Show me pieces of jewellery that have caught your imagination or tell me thoughts and dreams you wish could be made real...
*= For anyone who has noticed the trend that I seem to be very hung up and twitchy about my father spending money on me, yes, you're totally correct. I am. C'mon, one month he paid my rent and I tried to kill myself - this is a trigger point for me.