Lost tether. If found please return to...
Asked whyfor the mood and silence.
Matt mildly evasive in a pointless fashion. (I wasn't in a bad mood. Really. Maybe I was just feeling quiet. Y'know. All week. Me radiating 'mopey bastard' is just a side effect of my happiness, okay?)
I said 'Sooo...?'
He said *shrug*.
I said nothing because if I did the words would be 'Last time this all happened I carved swathes out of my neck. The time before I left London and went to Manchester for a week. If you do this again with no explanation I will leave and not return.'
There was silence for some time.
Then Matt asked what I was doing with my life because my life was (in the way life does) leaving me at a constant rate and I appeared to have nothing to show for it.
I couldn't decide whether my lack of practical ambition was what had been bugging him all week or if he'd brought it up just to change the subject.
I didn't reply to this question because it leads into an extremely long discussion of a quasi-philosophical nature about what I vs anyone everyone else consider worthwhile expenditures of my time and lifeforce. (It is probably a discussion which will be had at some point if for no other reason than Matt is currently paying my bed and board... But I didn't feel like having it today.)
People are elsewhere. I am not because I don't think a scowling monosyllabic corvid is anybody's favourite dinner guest.
Given the current climate I am wondering less about what I am doing with my life and more where I will be sleeping in the near future...
Matt mildly evasive in a pointless fashion. (I wasn't in a bad mood. Really. Maybe I was just feeling quiet. Y'know. All week. Me radiating 'mopey bastard' is just a side effect of my happiness, okay?)
I said 'Sooo...?'
He said *shrug*.
I said nothing because if I did the words would be 'Last time this all happened I carved swathes out of my neck. The time before I left London and went to Manchester for a week. If you do this again with no explanation I will leave and not return.'
There was silence for some time.
Then Matt asked what I was doing with my life because my life was (in the way life does) leaving me at a constant rate and I appeared to have nothing to show for it.
I couldn't decide whether my lack of practical ambition was what had been bugging him all week or if he'd brought it up just to change the subject.
I didn't reply to this question because it leads into an extremely long discussion of a quasi-philosophical nature about what I vs anyone everyone else consider worthwhile expenditures of my time and lifeforce. (It is probably a discussion which will be had at some point if for no other reason than Matt is currently paying my bed and board... But I didn't feel like having it today.)
People are elsewhere. I am not because I don't think a scowling monosyllabic corvid is anybody's favourite dinner guest.
Given the current climate I am wondering less about what I am doing with my life and more where I will be sleeping in the near future...