"If this is what you want then fire at will..."
It never ceases to amaze me. Sometimes when you think you had a shitty night and are done with misery now thanks, another one will come along hot on its heels and be even worse.
It also never ceases to amaze how two depressives can manage - subconsciously if need be and without malice - to maneuver through a conversation, orchestrating it so all their petty insecurities come true.
I'm not explaining it very well, but if you ever observe it or, gods help you, realise you've just had such a conversation, you'll know why it impresses me so much.
And I'd been doing so well on that count.
Since that's successfully sapped my will to do anything other than violence to myself, (and no, i refuse to start all that again)... I think I'll go to bed.
It also never ceases to amaze how two depressives can manage - subconsciously if need be and without malice - to maneuver through a conversation, orchestrating it so all their petty insecurities come true.
I'm not explaining it very well, but if you ever observe it or, gods help you, realise you've just had such a conversation, you'll know why it impresses me so much.
And I'd been doing so well on that count.
Since that's successfully sapped my will to do anything other than violence to myself, (and no, i refuse to start all that again)... I think I'll go to bed.