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wow, the wedding is only a few days away now. i feel quite calm about the whole ordeal. at this point i'm really looking forward to the event but i'm not overly excited either. somehow i've developed this superstition that if i get too out of control excited about something it increases the odds of something terrible happening. i think it's just my little brain trying to avoid heart breaking disappointment. so instead i just go with the flow, emotionally prepared for the worst but expecting the best. nevertheless i think it's going to be really fun and i can't wait.