I'm a Bitch.

[wowsa]

Yes, I know I am. I've been informed many times over the past few days.

I wish people would be nicer.

I know it's just a joke and I should lighten up, but there is a lot of crap in my life, and I know that I'm supposed to be the happy, carefree, bouncy Ashley, but guess what.

I am NOT capable of being that way constantly.

Yes, generally, I am a happy person. Life is fun.

And I know that I don't always know where the line is, but sometimes....I wish other people knew where it was with me.

I just want to be allowed to be sad. And to have people there that can truly understand.

There are tons of people that love me and I love them more than life in its own naked glory, but I wish....

I don't know what I wish.

I always have to share something with someone. And I'm not even talking about actual concrete things, but talents and ideas and such. I just want something that is a part of me and is mine. Mine alone. That I can think about and know that that is something I can do.

Something special, that I like. But, I dont have any specific talents. I'm no good at sports, I can't sing, or do anything musical, I suck at relationships, at art, whatever. You name it, it's certainly something I can't do.

Even writing, something I thought I could do, apparently I can't. Whatever.

I am aware that I sound like a selfish, horrid twit. Oh well, I'm happy to provide everyone with more evidence of how I'm such a bitch.