let me complain to you once again....
today was such a bad day..and it got worse as the day went on.
let me tell it to you:
went to school just felt different i felt like i was watching myself from a different person today; it was weird. then mike left at 12:20 to go hang out with robbie. i had behind the wheel..got over at 1:30..then i had to stay at school because i had a gay ass workout at school at 2:30 and i didnt have a ride to my house till then. so i sat in the cafeteria foyer doing my homework for 45 minutes..and the whole time i got to watch an adorable couple all cute and cuddly together. then school was over, i went and changed. felt out of place because im not up to pace with these damn soccer naxi's but im being forced to do this workout even though i have no want to particapate in any of it. id rather go drown myself, probably easier. well anyways, ran 1500 yards, excuse me ..sprinted 1500 yards. nonstop. yea that sucked. i am so out of shape it sucks. well then to make my day much worse, i was the slowest one out there. and then just to add to it.. i didnt have a ride home, so i sat outside in the cold from 3:15-4:00 waiting for my dad to come from work, once again sitting by myself doing homework. tried to call caitlin to hang out..no response. then i got home and i couldnt wait till mike got off work to hang out with him. thats all i wanted to do. was be held by the one person i love to death and just be able to feel loved. so i was laying down in my bed listening to music just thinking about everything. then mike calls and tells me he cant hang out with me tonight he has to stay at home.. so guess what im stuck sitting alone all night by myself...just like the rest of the day.
i dont think ive felt this lonely in forever, exspecially with having so many people around me. i just felt out of place, a differnt person, a different way.
i love mike to death and all i want to do is hold him and hug him. but i cant tonight.
b\goodbye
let me tell it to you:
went to school just felt different i felt like i was watching myself from a different person today; it was weird. then mike left at 12:20 to go hang out with robbie. i had behind the wheel..got over at 1:30..then i had to stay at school because i had a gay ass workout at school at 2:30 and i didnt have a ride to my house till then. so i sat in the cafeteria foyer doing my homework for 45 minutes..and the whole time i got to watch an adorable couple all cute and cuddly together. then school was over, i went and changed. felt out of place because im not up to pace with these damn soccer naxi's but im being forced to do this workout even though i have no want to particapate in any of it. id rather go drown myself, probably easier. well anyways, ran 1500 yards, excuse me ..sprinted 1500 yards. nonstop. yea that sucked. i am so out of shape it sucks. well then to make my day much worse, i was the slowest one out there. and then just to add to it.. i didnt have a ride home, so i sat outside in the cold from 3:15-4:00 waiting for my dad to come from work, once again sitting by myself doing homework. tried to call caitlin to hang out..no response. then i got home and i couldnt wait till mike got off work to hang out with him. thats all i wanted to do. was be held by the one person i love to death and just be able to feel loved. so i was laying down in my bed listening to music just thinking about everything. then mike calls and tells me he cant hang out with me tonight he has to stay at home.. so guess what im stuck sitting alone all night by myself...just like the rest of the day.
i dont think ive felt this lonely in forever, exspecially with having so many people around me. i just felt out of place, a differnt person, a different way.
i love mike to death and all i want to do is hold him and hug him. but i cant tonight.
b\goodbye