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we ended up just staying home last night and drinking. we really don't have the money to be going out, but i would really like to.
tj and i have been weird for the past few weeks. not all the time, but sometimes it's just like we've lost our connection or something. he's been treating me kind of bad, like been a real asshole over stupid shit. and we talked about it a couple days ago, and he said he was so sorry and that he wouldn't treat me like that anymore, that he's just been really stressed and he can't lose me. so i thought maybe things would change because the rest of that day he was really really sweet to me, asking me if i wanted him to make me any food, letting me control the tv remote, etc. but now it's kind of back to how it was. not as bad, no. he's not being mean to me like he was, but i can just see some of the qualities that i don't like coming back. and it just really upsets me. i told him maybe we are past our prime and maybe we're with each other out of habit. but we both decided that that wasn't the case and we really love each other. but if things don't change, i don't know... i told him he doesn't treat me like he did when we first started dating. he doesn't have to worry about trying to impress me anymore and stuff like that. he said that he was really sorry because i let him be himself completely, and he doesn't do the same for me. i don't know, maybe i'm being too picky. but i didn't use to feel like this, and i know how i want to be treated. he'll just snap at me sometimes. and when he really wants to do something, like go get a video game at hastings, and when i say no because we can't afford it, he gets mad at me and pouts. so i don't know what to do! i told him (when we had "the talk" about our relationship) that if i didn't feel different in a few days, we would need to talk about what we're going to do. well it's been a few days but i don't want to give up. we'll see how today goes. we're going to go to the library and look at books and chill. i really want us to be okay. i hope this is just a rut we're going through.
tj and i have been weird for the past few weeks. not all the time, but sometimes it's just like we've lost our connection or something. he's been treating me kind of bad, like been a real asshole over stupid shit. and we talked about it a couple days ago, and he said he was so sorry and that he wouldn't treat me like that anymore, that he's just been really stressed and he can't lose me. so i thought maybe things would change because the rest of that day he was really really sweet to me, asking me if i wanted him to make me any food, letting me control the tv remote, etc. but now it's kind of back to how it was. not as bad, no. he's not being mean to me like he was, but i can just see some of the qualities that i don't like coming back. and it just really upsets me. i told him maybe we are past our prime and maybe we're with each other out of habit. but we both decided that that wasn't the case and we really love each other. but if things don't change, i don't know... i told him he doesn't treat me like he did when we first started dating. he doesn't have to worry about trying to impress me anymore and stuff like that. he said that he was really sorry because i let him be himself completely, and he doesn't do the same for me. i don't know, maybe i'm being too picky. but i didn't use to feel like this, and i know how i want to be treated. he'll just snap at me sometimes. and when he really wants to do something, like go get a video game at hastings, and when i say no because we can't afford it, he gets mad at me and pouts. so i don't know what to do! i told him (when we had "the talk" about our relationship) that if i didn't feel different in a few days, we would need to talk about what we're going to do. well it's been a few days but i don't want to give up. we'll see how today goes. we're going to go to the library and look at books and chill. i really want us to be okay. i hope this is just a rut we're going through.