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I don’t understand… I am just so sore tired. It hurts to even think about moving my body. I can’t even think about work for another 7 hours. I just want to not move at all. No movement, at all, for the rest of my life. I want to just sit and watch my life pass me by. I don’t know what is bringing this on but I think it has to do with the victims in Louisiana. It’s appalling to see humanity at it’s worst. It makes me cry to see it on the news when in comes in and I just break. To see people kill the weak and destroy the future just so their insignificant live can continue for another day that they stole form the ones that need it most. I wish I could be held. I want to give everything I am to anyone if I knew it would make him or her happy. I don’t care about me anymore. On the news a reporter said, “when you are left with nothing that you had the defined you as a person you need to redefine your life.” What it you don’t want to? What if all you want to do is cease to be because you life is with out definition and it will never be redefined ever again. Why think like this? The answer is simple; you can’t redefine words. That word will be used and it will never be changed, I wish I could take them back I really would. Maybe if I was not so angry when I found out things would be different but they are not. Why must I be hurt so badly? I am a good person, granted I made some mistakes but the punishment should be this cruel. I look to the sky and find nothing. My lovebird has flown away. And it’s all my fault, and so I must see her to bid her a happy life.