Quenched
I'm pretty content right now ... 'cuz weekends like this remind me how much I actually have, and that I don't need to always look for or pursue what I don't have. Raul unexpectedly dropped by just to see how I was doin'. Lately, I've been havin' a hard time ending the day and calling it a night ... its like I wanna hold on to the day to try to find something else to do, another person to connect with, another opportunity to arise before I close my eyes. Like I'm suckin' all the flavor I can out of a slurpee, but I'm still thirsty. Actually, all too often, its food that I try to use to satisfy that craving before I go to bed. But food doesn't quench a thirst. Maybe I need to change the way I'm thinking about what I want ... my mindset. Maybe I need to get some water instead. Afterall, slurpees cost money anyway, prices are constantly rising, and water is free. This year, since I live alone, that act of friendship seems to mean so much more than it did before. But it shouldn't ... it really shouldn't. Raul's visit makes it a little easier to call it a night for some reason. Maybe because I don't feel so lonely right now. Maybe because we rambled on until past 2 am and talked ourselves sleepy. All I know is that I don't feel the need to search for much right now ... my thirst is fairly quenched. Good friendship has a way of doing that. Its not just due to Raul either ... Marla and Jen, I'm speaking to you here too.