sex
for like the past straight two months it's the only thing i've been thinking about. it's the most dominant thought in my head and i relly don't know why. but whatever.
time for some serious posting. i think i said this already, but a couple of weeks ago my mom got fired. that sucked, but whatever. i've been kinda down and out lately. i get like this everytime christmas comes around. i just don't like the season. i can't get into to the mood anymore. it's like it doesn't make sense anymore. i've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. like if i want to get married or not. i mean right now i could use a relationship. it would give me something to focus on. but i want a serious, lasting relationship. not something that will end in a couple weeks. i want someone i can fall in love with. someone who will love me back.
i haven't talked to my dad in a long while. i should call him. it's kinda sad. i never thouhgt something like this would happen to my family. adn i always think it's my fault now. i maen ever since i found out my mom was 6 months pregnat hen she got married, it feels like it's my fault. like if i was never born things wouldn't be this way. but whatever.
right now i just want things to go back to how they were when i was smaller. i didn't have care in the world cause i was happy, my parents were happy, and that's all that mattered. now that i'm all grown up, i see that that the world is not as simple as you would like it to be.
i've learned a lot in these 19 years i've been here. i think to much. i've learned how to love, how to hate, how to be strong. but most importantly how to forget. it's easier to pretned like it didn't happen.
anyway. i'm out. much love to all you niggas out there that have'nt forgotten that i exist.
holla at ya boy!
time for some serious posting. i think i said this already, but a couple of weeks ago my mom got fired. that sucked, but whatever. i've been kinda down and out lately. i get like this everytime christmas comes around. i just don't like the season. i can't get into to the mood anymore. it's like it doesn't make sense anymore. i've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. like if i want to get married or not. i mean right now i could use a relationship. it would give me something to focus on. but i want a serious, lasting relationship. not something that will end in a couple weeks. i want someone i can fall in love with. someone who will love me back.
i haven't talked to my dad in a long while. i should call him. it's kinda sad. i never thouhgt something like this would happen to my family. adn i always think it's my fault now. i maen ever since i found out my mom was 6 months pregnat hen she got married, it feels like it's my fault. like if i was never born things wouldn't be this way. but whatever.
right now i just want things to go back to how they were when i was smaller. i didn't have care in the world cause i was happy, my parents were happy, and that's all that mattered. now that i'm all grown up, i see that that the world is not as simple as you would like it to be.
i've learned a lot in these 19 years i've been here. i think to much. i've learned how to love, how to hate, how to be strong. but most importantly how to forget. it's easier to pretned like it didn't happen.
anyway. i'm out. much love to all you niggas out there that have'nt forgotten that i exist.
holla at ya boy!