La Chute
Everythings was alright. Nothing could hurts me. Nothing. Neither money issue, neither sickness, neither threatening, nothing. I stood still and right, fearing nothing, doing my best.
And right now, i feel that inner emptiness, that feeling that everything is going to reach it's limit. My limits. Being threaten to be throw out almost everyday. Doing my best to be told it's not enough. Try my best to be told i've done nothing efficient. That feeling in my chest, as if even my body reaches its limit regarding the situation, as if it tells me "It's the end of your current happiness, look foward next time."
I wanna be happy and safe, i don't want to fall again. That's so freaking frightening to see i'm almost there. 6 months of happiness, i don't know how many months of darkness to come.
I can't stand that bipolar disorder anymore.
La chute est pour bientôt.
And right now, i feel that inner emptiness, that feeling that everything is going to reach it's limit. My limits. Being threaten to be throw out almost everyday. Doing my best to be told it's not enough. Try my best to be told i've done nothing efficient. That feeling in my chest, as if even my body reaches its limit regarding the situation, as if it tells me "It's the end of your current happiness, look foward next time."
I wanna be happy and safe, i don't want to fall again. That's so freaking frightening to see i'm almost there. 6 months of happiness, i don't know how many months of darkness to come.
I can't stand that bipolar disorder anymore.
La chute est pour bientôt.