13 + Laus Deo +

[worthyofhislove]

A new year by another calender always inspires the impression of a fresh start, does it not? Why not. Through out your existence you will only have so many opportunities. Why not take a chance?

Start a new, citizens. Purify your heart, mind and soul. Come as you are to your Father in Heaven.

Confess.

[ooc; Heeenrymun comment spam?]

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[theotokos]

Confess?

[worthyofhislove]

To the sin that weighs you down.

[theotokos]

Mm. I'll bite.

[worthyofhislove]

Speak freely, Lady.

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[theotokos]

I stray too far from my mother's ideals, perhaps her wishes for what she wanted me to be.

[ooc; l-lol, she won't be cryptic about it, she'll explain DX]

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[worthyofhislove]

For what reason?

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[theotokos]

My mother was murdered when I was fairly young by someone I know -- my father. And I guess her death harbored more hatred than actual grief over the years. It shouldn't bug me as much as it should, but someone said I carry more grudges and hatred, and it does come back to her. The sad part is, I know my mother wouldn't want me to be like this.

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[worthyofhislove]

Hate will poison you. Cast it out or it will taint those who you care for most.

You're correct to think that your mother would have wanted a different outcome. Any mother wishes her child to be happy. I don't for see happiness emerging from the waters of bitterness.

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[theotokos]

Then I confess hatred for my father and anything that ties to him as well.

I know. I know she would, she was a very devout woman. I just don't like to admit to it and that I'm wrong.

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[worthyofhislove]

What has that hatred brought you? As I see it, you're protected from grief and confusion.

Admittance will lead to change.

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[theotokos]

I have yet to figure that out, even now. His actions- they're unforgivable.

I really don't know anymore. If that's the case, then it's brought nothing than an aggravating loop of emotions and actions.

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[worthyofhislove]

The path to forgiving one who has gravely wronged you is long and treacherous. For now, I would focus on setting yourself free of hatred. He is undeserving of so much of your energies, especially when they upset you so.