long time no type.....
So yeah a lot has happened since i last posted... and yeah... some of it i am happy about and then others i am super upset about and then others... well i have learned to kinda not let it bother me. Okay where to start... how about with Homecoming... i looked super hott... lol yeah right.. well okay i tired to. I had a date and his name was Chris. Him and his buddy Kevin came and picked me up and we went to Mack's house to meet with Mack and Jessica (Girl from school.. really really cool and sweet).. well took pictures in the freezing cold and then went inside and talked for a little bit and then off to dinner. Mind you the whole night Chris opened up doors for me and everything i mean he pulled out my chair... A continental gentleman.... ( One of a vanishing breed Rick... sorry play... it gets to your brain!!! ) And everything.. it was wonderful.. well we got done eating early so we went back to Mack's house and started to watch Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom... well we didn't get to finish it cuz we looked at the clock and we were late for the dance... So we jetted out of there to get to the dance... and when we got there we met up with people took pictures and so on... you know the normal. and then went and "danced". Well my date had to be home early so we left early so that i could pick up something from Mack's that i left and also so that Chris could get home on time... Needless you say i lost my best friend from school and that really hurt and sucked... but yeah not really going to go into that... Okay well i have some thoughts about the dance i would like to state...
1. I had fun don't get me wrong... but i couldn't really make myself have fun.. i kinda couldn't think about Chris while we were there... i kinda thought about some one else... and it kinda made me want to leave the dance.
2. The ONE slow dance i danced to with Chris wasn't the best one to dance to considering my condition.
3. don't really have a 3 but you are posed to have 3 so here is my 3.....
So when we left i was super glad that we did... but i was super scared cuz people were mad at me... people that meant a lot to me... but i couldn't change it i didn't want to ruin some one else's night cuz mine wasn't going o so well.... Okay then... i got home and he walked me to the door and the night was over... Then Sunday i wore my pink dress to Church. And so after church i went to Frankenmuth with Sarah W and her ex... mike... that was interesting... yeah needless to say.. there are some pretty cute guys that work there... lol yeah anyways... i had fun.. i wore my dress all day.. and got "checked out" so sarah says all day.. i didn't notice.. i was deep in thought as always... Stupid me i have to think... okay yeah... so then yeah what else super big has happened.... O yeah... Chris and i started to become an item... and we were for about i don't know a week or two ( he gave me a teddy bear for sweetest day... how sweet... a canadian bear.. only the best... lol) ... but he started to scare me by telling me that he loved me and all this stuff and he didn't really know me i mean i hadn't even told him that much about me and we are super super opposites... and needless to say... i really didn't like him i thought i did... but i didn't and i was a heartless jerk and went out with him and know i feel like a big big jerk.. but i can't change the pass... Therefore.. i broke it off with him.... Good news.. i kinda feel better bout it... Bad news he follows and stalks me all the time... FREAKY!!! Anyways... yeah... so i had to break it off for many reasons... but some i really don't wanna talk about.... I tired out for the play thinking that everyone would get a part in it like last time.. HOWEVER... this time she cut people out and i wasn't one of them ... I am now MISS MAPLE... i sort of big part... all you guys should come see the play i am on Friday night the 18 or november... kinda coming up... super nervous.... yeah well now that i am in play i don't have time to think or wonder about things... instead i am running over my lines again and again... In addition, i have made new friends one of which is Scott who is a really sweet and funny freshman who is really really cute... and makes me laugh and have fun.. He is pregnant and wants and is craving nuts.. he also watches only Disney movies and he breaks into random song... definitely awesome... he is one that makes me smile and can turn my frown upside down... Yeah since play i have been hanging out with Eric so much more... and he is really starting to grow on me... in a good way i guess... I really like being friends with him and i love that he is always there for me... lol he is a silly boy... Man there is so much i want to talk about and get out... but i can't i mean i really don't want the whole world to read it.. but i will say some things... I hate that i have all these thoughts and feelings all mixed up in my head yet i can't and don't understand most of it.. and the only thing i know or can feel for sure no doubt in my mind.. i can't do anything about... well long enough for now... Talk to you all later... Love ... Duh...
1. I had fun don't get me wrong... but i couldn't really make myself have fun.. i kinda couldn't think about Chris while we were there... i kinda thought about some one else... and it kinda made me want to leave the dance.
2. The ONE slow dance i danced to with Chris wasn't the best one to dance to considering my condition.
3. don't really have a 3 but you are posed to have 3 so here is my 3.....
So when we left i was super glad that we did... but i was super scared cuz people were mad at me... people that meant a lot to me... but i couldn't change it i didn't want to ruin some one else's night cuz mine wasn't going o so well.... Okay then... i got home and he walked me to the door and the night was over... Then Sunday i wore my pink dress to Church. And so after church i went to Frankenmuth with Sarah W and her ex... mike... that was interesting... yeah needless to say.. there are some pretty cute guys that work there... lol yeah anyways... i had fun.. i wore my dress all day.. and got "checked out" so sarah says all day.. i didn't notice.. i was deep in thought as always... Stupid me i have to think... okay yeah... so then yeah what else super big has happened.... O yeah... Chris and i started to become an item... and we were for about i don't know a week or two ( he gave me a teddy bear for sweetest day... how sweet... a canadian bear.. only the best... lol) ... but he started to scare me by telling me that he loved me and all this stuff and he didn't really know me i mean i hadn't even told him that much about me and we are super super opposites... and needless to say... i really didn't like him i thought i did... but i didn't and i was a heartless jerk and went out with him and know i feel like a big big jerk.. but i can't change the pass... Therefore.. i broke it off with him.... Good news.. i kinda feel better bout it... Bad news he follows and stalks me all the time... FREAKY!!! Anyways... yeah... so i had to break it off for many reasons... but some i really don't wanna talk about.... I tired out for the play thinking that everyone would get a part in it like last time.. HOWEVER... this time she cut people out and i wasn't one of them ... I am now MISS MAPLE... i sort of big part... all you guys should come see the play i am on Friday night the 18 or november... kinda coming up... super nervous.... yeah well now that i am in play i don't have time to think or wonder about things... instead i am running over my lines again and again... In addition, i have made new friends one of which is Scott who is a really sweet and funny freshman who is really really cute... and makes me laugh and have fun.. He is pregnant and wants and is craving nuts.. he also watches only Disney movies and he breaks into random song... definitely awesome... he is one that makes me smile and can turn my frown upside down... Yeah since play i have been hanging out with Eric so much more... and he is really starting to grow on me... in a good way i guess... I really like being friends with him and i love that he is always there for me... lol he is a silly boy... Man there is so much i want to talk about and get out... but i can't i mean i really don't want the whole world to read it.. but i will say some things... I hate that i have all these thoughts and feelings all mixed up in my head yet i can't and don't understand most of it.. and the only thing i know or can feel for sure no doubt in my mind.. i can't do anything about... well long enough for now... Talk to you all later... Love ... Duh...