jenny. wow. god its been so long. merry christmas and happy new year to you also. i just want to say thanks. thanks for understanding. no one else seems to. this may sound weird but feel free to read my journal. i guess what i mean is. i am sorry for everything. and i miss you. i just hope life is going well. i hope your boyfriend makes you feel loved instead of just saying it. (in all sincerity). thats the way its supposed to be. i hope life out on your own is as good as it can be. and yeah. time sure does go fast. faster than i like it to. i feel so out of touch sometimes even with my own life. not to mention everyone elses. money seems to go faster than time though unfortunately... theres never really enough to pay all of the bills or just splurge on yourself or anything. at least i am splitting rent with someone or id never make it. i live with my aunt and its not bad because we have opposite work hours. oh well. uhm. so thanks again jenny. you dont know how much i appreciate it. anyway. sorry i wrote you a book. didnt mean to really. since i dont know if you will even check back to see if i responded. but. happy holidays to you. Sam*
understandable. i can't reallly afford anything, and i went a bit overboard with christmas, if i do say so myself. got my boyfriend one of those flying saucers, some santa boxers and a hat, a video game and a wireless controller so all the people at our house arent tripping over it (more so myself ::wink::). But yeah, and I spent a lot on my family. I havent lived at home since I graduated. I've just moved from place to place really. Rented 2 places, this being the second. And I do love my boyfriend, and he loves and cherishes me with all of his heart and means it so so much. We have our problems but we love each other, what couple that lives together doesnt have problems though, you know? I missed you too, I mean, shit happens, life happens people do things and you can't let it matter forever. What happened happened and if anything in a way I thank you, I would never have what I do now if I wouldnt have made some changes. And when we/I finally did I went through a stage of trial and error and made some mistakes and made some/lost some friends. But, I realized it's life and thats how things go. I don't know how much I have written now, but shit I have some toys to play with! This is a good christmas, for sure. You should stop by my house sometime, just to check it out and see what I have done with myself. IT's been over a year since I've really seen you. Ok, gotta boy toys and The SAnta Clause movie.. Whoot!
sorry its taken me so long.worthlessregretJanuary 12 2005, 06:00:30 UTC
jenny, i dont even know if you are still checking to see if i have written back or if you have given up on me. i have been so busy lately with work and trying to find a new job and everything else. but i did want to write back. so here i am. so how are you liking that wireless controller? makes life a lot easier doesnt it? its so funny how you hate your family hate your family hate your family and then you move out and they all of the sudden grow on you... i spent so much money on family this year too its ridiculous. and then with well keiths family and everything else... i got keith a watch.. he actually picked it out its one of those liquid crystal ones so on the face theres a dragon and the background is flames and they move and whatnot... i also got him tickets to see bill engvall at the riverside. uhm i was so excited cause mom and todd got me the camera i have wanted for so long!! so ive been miss photographer. lol. keith bought me a diamond ring. which i made very clear before i wore it that it didnt mean anything significant. so basically theres no name for it like people keep asking if its a promise ring or friendship ring or whatever and i say friendship yeah i guess. its really just a ring. i agree with the whole friends coming and going and changes and trial and error. it really is life. and can you believe that its been as long as it has? its been since spring of junior year. and so much has changed for both of us.... makes you feel old thinking about it doesnt it? well hope youre new years was as good as your christmas. and maybe i will hear back from you.... and i dont know maybe we can get together sometime. who knows.... sorry to write so much again. but they never could quite shut us up when we were together could they? hope youre happy and healthy so far this new year and that it stays that way. *Sam*
Re: sorry its taken me so long.attractionJanuary 12 2005, 16:36:02 UTC
Sam,
Of course I will write back, not much else to do. I quit my job last week, and am in the process of writing the EEOC an extended letter explaining to them the bullshit myself and everyone else is put through there. It's wrong and I am sorry but I have always been one to cause problems. I'm spending all my time looking for a new job (duh! right? I have an apartment and a crap-load of bills I can't really afford) but I have 2 years experience in an office and lots of agencies and friends surrying around to help. I just couldn't stay there. New years- eh, it was alright. I used to be such a party girl that sometimes I miss it, I was proud that I said no to somethings. Whatever, ot upset some and I slept at my parents house. Fine by me, I would rather make myself happy than others (selfish selfish jenny). This is going to be a year of toss ups and mix ups I think. Bring it though, I love a challenge. How are you and Keith? Good? I assume your still together from your gifts. I got Kyle a nifty watch a couple months ago that has a slide face (pretty much the same) but its green with a black bar that slides. I found out my ex is in jail- always proud to hear things like that. Idiot. But it's all ok, he deserves it and I'm over it all just disappointed I was with a now jail-bird. Ok, I gotta go. I have so much to do today inclusing talking to my landlord about the nasty ass we have living downstairs. He banged on our door last night because the yahtzee dice cup hitting the table was too loud. He keeps complaining- he's going to get up kicked out when we aren't doing anything wrong. Stupid loney old angry drunk men. And I need to go shopping I have been craving a big chunk of meat! Whoo. Your welcome to come stop over sometime. Just let me know.
wow. god its been so long.
merry christmas and happy new year to you also.
i just want to say thanks. thanks for understanding. no one else seems to. this may sound weird but feel free to read my journal. i guess what i mean is. i am sorry for everything. and i miss you. i just hope life is going well. i hope your boyfriend makes you feel loved instead of just saying it. (in all sincerity). thats the way its supposed to be. i hope life out on your own is as good as it can be.
and yeah. time sure does go fast. faster than i like it to. i feel so out of touch sometimes even with my own life. not to mention everyone elses. money seems to go faster than time though unfortunately... theres never really enough to pay all of the bills or just splurge on yourself or anything. at least i am splitting rent with someone or id never make it. i live with my aunt and its not bad because we have opposite work hours.
oh well.
uhm. so thanks again jenny. you dont know how much i appreciate it.
anyway. sorry i wrote you a book. didnt mean to really. since i dont know if you will even check back to see if i responded. but.
happy holidays to you.
Sam*
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i dont even know if you are still checking to see if i have written back or if you have given up on me. i have been so busy lately with work and trying to find a new job and everything else. but i did want to write back. so here i am. so how are you liking that wireless controller? makes life a lot easier doesnt it? its so funny how you hate your family hate your family hate your family and then you move out and they all of the sudden grow on you... i spent so much money on family this year too its ridiculous. and then with well keiths family and everything else... i got keith a watch.. he actually picked it out its one of those liquid crystal ones so on the face theres a dragon and the background is flames and they move and whatnot... i also got him tickets to see bill engvall at the riverside. uhm i was so excited cause mom and todd got me the camera i have wanted for so long!! so ive been miss photographer. lol. keith bought me a diamond ring. which i made very clear before i wore it that it didnt mean anything significant. so basically theres no name for it like people keep asking if its a promise ring or friendship ring or whatever and i say friendship yeah i guess. its really just a ring. i agree with the whole friends coming and going and changes and trial and error. it really is life. and can you believe that its been as long as it has? its been since spring of junior year. and so much has changed for both of us.... makes you feel old thinking about it doesnt it? well hope youre new years was as good as your christmas. and maybe i will hear back from you.... and i dont know maybe we can get together sometime. who knows.... sorry to write so much again. but they never could quite shut us up when we were together could they? hope youre happy and healthy so far this new year and that it stays that way.
*Sam*
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Of course I will write back, not much else to do. I quit my job last week, and am in the process of writing the EEOC an extended letter explaining to them the bullshit myself and everyone else is put through there. It's wrong and I am sorry but I have always been one to cause problems. I'm spending all my time looking for a new job (duh! right? I have an apartment and a crap-load of bills I can't really afford) but I have 2 years experience in an office and lots of agencies and friends surrying around to help. I just couldn't stay there. New years- eh, it was alright. I used to be such a party girl that sometimes I miss it, I was proud that I said no to somethings. Whatever, ot upset some and I slept at my parents house. Fine by me, I would rather make myself happy than others (selfish selfish jenny). This is going to be a year of toss ups and mix ups I think. Bring it though, I love a challenge.
How are you and Keith? Good? I assume your still together from your gifts. I got Kyle a nifty watch a couple months ago that has a slide face (pretty much the same) but its green with a black bar that slides. I found out my ex is in jail- always proud to hear things like that. Idiot. But it's all ok, he deserves it and I'm over it all just disappointed I was with a now jail-bird.
Ok, I gotta go. I have so much to do today inclusing talking to my landlord about the nasty ass we have living downstairs. He banged on our door last night because the yahtzee dice cup hitting the table was too loud. He keeps complaining- he's going to get up kicked out when we aren't doing anything wrong. Stupid loney old angry drunk men. And I need to go shopping I have been craving a big chunk of meat! Whoo.
Your welcome to come stop over sometime. Just let me know.
Jenny
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