Just the way it always is . . .
By nature, I am not a loquacious person. I tend to be quiet and reserved. This bothers me sometimes, most particularly when I have feelings for someone and I'm unable to snare them with dazzling conversation.
Although I've been in a large number of "relationships," all entirely different and none of which were very durable, I have never met anyone with whom I immediately felt at ease. Also, I have never met anyone with whom I was very compatible - at least, not until recently.
I finally met someone who is similar to me. We have things in common that I never thought I would find in anyone, much less a smart, sweet, geeky, attractive guy. Everything with him feels right. And wonder of wonders, he actually thinks I'm beautiful. Me, Juanita, the fat girl who gets mocked and ignored in favor for uglier, but skinnier girls. We've seen each other every day for the past five days and have spent an outrageous amount of time together.
So what can I possibly have to complain about? Mr. Wonderful has only been single for two weeks, and he was with his ex-girlfriend for almost eleven months. Eleven months . . . that's a pretty long time, and one cannot get over someone else in only two weeks when you were together that long, particularly when it was her who dumped him and when it came out of nowhere.
I don't know what to do. Do I keep seeing him, despite his worries that he's leading me on and the fact that if she were to want him back, he'd go back to her? I haven't known him very long, so theoretically, I should be able to quit this friendship relatively easily. But how can I give up on him so soon when I have this feeling that things could be so amazing with him?
Would it be wrong to keep on and pray that she doesn't want him back and that he gradually gets over her? He already likes me, so perhaps if we continue to see each other on a regular basis, he'll get over her quicker and then I can be with him?
Although I've been in a large number of "relationships," all entirely different and none of which were very durable, I have never met anyone with whom I immediately felt at ease. Also, I have never met anyone with whom I was very compatible - at least, not until recently.
I finally met someone who is similar to me. We have things in common that I never thought I would find in anyone, much less a smart, sweet, geeky, attractive guy. Everything with him feels right. And wonder of wonders, he actually thinks I'm beautiful. Me, Juanita, the fat girl who gets mocked and ignored in favor for uglier, but skinnier girls. We've seen each other every day for the past five days and have spent an outrageous amount of time together.
So what can I possibly have to complain about? Mr. Wonderful has only been single for two weeks, and he was with his ex-girlfriend for almost eleven months. Eleven months . . . that's a pretty long time, and one cannot get over someone else in only two weeks when you were together that long, particularly when it was her who dumped him and when it came out of nowhere.
I don't know what to do. Do I keep seeing him, despite his worries that he's leading me on and the fact that if she were to want him back, he'd go back to her? I haven't known him very long, so theoretically, I should be able to quit this friendship relatively easily. But how can I give up on him so soon when I have this feeling that things could be so amazing with him?
Would it be wrong to keep on and pray that she doesn't want him back and that he gradually gets over her? He already likes me, so perhaps if we continue to see each other on a regular basis, he'll get over her quicker and then I can be with him?