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[kane_goddess]

[Continued from here]"Very dirty baby. Very dirty." I grinned back at him and lightly drug my nails over his arm. "I only scream when you make me scream. But you've never had a problem with that

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[kane_goddess]

Calming dreamless sleep's are real nice, I don't have deep sleep anymore, I think my mind thinks too much to get real sleep.

My eyes opened slowly to find Logan looking down at me, he looked at me intently and I gave him a look. "Trying to memorize me so you can sketch me while I sleep?" I teased lightly, leaning up and kissing his lips and then his eyelids lightly before moving closer to him.

Logan and I were going to enjoy these two weeks and my mission - next to getting him to listen to my music - was to get that haunted look out of his eyes, even if it was for a day. I knew where that look came from and I wish I could make it go away but I can't. I'll just try and push it away for a little while.

Yawning I squirmed out of his arms and pulled my shirt off, tossing it onto the floor and then slipping my skirt off, leaving me in just my bra. I laid back down next to him, curling and pressing my body tightly to his.

One place I felt like me and felt safe was with Logan. Right in this moment I felt ok and safe. That just made me wrap my arms tighter around him and bury my nose in his neck, taking in his scent and kissing his pulse softly. "I love you."

[logan_echolls]

Yeah, there's the exact look that I expected to find the moment she'd open her eyes. It was the are-you-fucking-crazy look that she had. That quickly melted away into a soft spreading smile that mirrored my own.

She leans into me and kisses my lips and my eyelashes. Lilly, though an incredibly wicked siren, occasionally took off her own mask and showed me the affectionate sign. I was pretty sure that I was the only one who saw her like that.

She shuffles out of her clothing - excluding her bra - and curls in next to me again, her body pressing against mine. She holds tight, close to me like I'm the only one in the world that she needs. I shut my eyes again and have to hold back that feeling building again in the pit of the stomach. That's the one thing that Lilly can't deal with: tears. Face it, neither can I.

My hand presses her close and back against me. Tightly. She knows this feeling and she knows where I am. I feel raw and exposed like the wounds on my back. I know probably soon, after she finishes kissing the place on my neck where she can feel my heart beat, she'll strip me of my shirt and look at the damage.

I've stopped trying to stop her.

If I can't trust Lilly, I can't trust anyone. Besides, my body's just a canvas. These scars... they can heal. They heal into just marks that you can only see in certain lights. They become bruises and minor cuts. They become nothing. It can all just go away. That's why I don't cry: It all goes away.

I let out a small sound from my throat, my voice is thicker than usual. "I love you too, Lil." God, more than anything. That's when I strip myself of my own shirt.

The lie, at least, works for now.

[kane_goddess]

He pulls his shirt off and I swallow hard, blinking my eyes open and looking up at him as he looks down and everywhere but at me. "Logan..." I murmur, knowing that things must have gotten bad - way out of hand bad - last night for all this to be happening.

I sit up and run my hands over his shoulders, my fingers running down his back lightly as I feel the fresh marks. I lean up and kiss him softly, running my lips over his jaw and down to his shoulder.

Pushing him down to the bed slowly so he's on his side, I move over behind him and run my fingers over his shoulder blades. My lips find his skin and I kiss him softly, wishing that I was some sort of super hero or something that with the touch of my hand I could make his hurt go away. I knew at this moment when I saw his back that I was ending things with Aaron, the thrill was gone. I just couldn't do it anymore.

"I'm so sorry." I murmured inaudibly against his skin. Maybe we could just take off, never go back. I'm sure I could persuade Duncan to send me money and what not if we just took off, he'd understand.

Pulling away from him I pulled off my lace bra before pulling the sheet up and over us. I didn't want the lace to make his back hurt any more then it already did. I loved when Logan had his arms around me, one of the few times I let all the bullshit fall away and was myself, but now was one of those times I would put everything I wanted aside.

I pulled the blanket up and pressed myself against him, wrapping my arm around him and a small smile tugged at my lips when his fingers found mine. I love you so much, I wish you never hurt. Especially because of that bastard.

[logan_echolls]

It's like a ritual or something. I'm in her arms and she lets her fingers rome from place to place - trying to figure out what hurts the least. Duncan doesn't know this, not really. He pretends not to know. He pretends not to see beyond all of this into the truth and what really happens behind the closed doors of the Echolls' place.

Lilly sees. But then again, Lilly always sees. You can either hate her for it or accept the idea that deep down inside she just might care.

I have to force my voice to work. "It was...-" My voice lowers and I wince for a moment as her fingers brush across a darker bruise; it's like being caught in a blackberry patch - scratched up and bleeding because of thorns. I start again, "I hate premieres."

There are reasons. My dad treats my mom like shit and I inevitably get caught up in their mess. Groping a girl's ass isn't considered being friendly. I'm pretty damn sure that it's beyond the friendly lines.

She's gentle. Lilly isn't making this hurt any more than it has to. She pulls me down closely in front of her and I can feel her lace bra scratching against my back. I have to stop any urge to start shaking as her fingers slip between my shoulder blades. I feel her murmur something against my skin, but I can't tell what she's saying. It doesn't matter. She puts her lips on all the right places - anywhere but where my dad has made his artwork of patched purples.

Slipping off her bra, I feel her warm body press against mine. Swallowing the lump in my throat, my fingers find her and squeeze tight.

[kane_goddess]

"Doesn't matter what it was baby. Still not right." I tiny smile tugs at my lips and I wrap myself tighter around him. "You're mine. That's all there is to it, nobody's allowed to touch what's mine." I kiss his neck and speak softly against his skin. "Are we going to have to get you a tattoo or something? Property of Lilly Kane?"

He laughs slightly - it's a small step but a step still - and kisses my fingers. "No more premieres. I'm stealing you away. Or...or I'll go with you. Something."

Lilly Kane doesn't do helpless but I'm making a wonderful shot at it now. Fuck, I hate this.

"Forget home, we both need to ignore anything from home - unless it's Duncan with something real important - but it's just us. For two whole weeks, it's you and me baby."

My voice was quiet and sounded slightly playful but we both knew I meant what I said. I hated seeing him like this and I hated being helpless but I was going to do what I could. Logan meant a hell of a lot to me, I wasn't going to let himself become some abused alcoholic who loved all the pills of the rainbow. He's too good to be lost to me like that.

[logan_echolls]

My lips almost quirk into a smile for a moment at her words as she whispers into my neck. "Yeah, we should tattoo that on my ass." Lilly, the occasional sap. I knew she hated this part. This was the one thing she couldn't do. She couldn't deal with the fact that writing some people off was just impossible.

Lilly Kane didn't like feeling of helplessness. She felt it more than I did. I knew that. I had no problem, most of the time, just shrugging off my feelings - pushing them back or pushing them in. Anywhere but on the outside. Evidence? The fact that I don't feel any need to shake or cry anymore. That was just gone.

"Fuck premieres and social image." I state in a sort of laugh. I'm smiling at the least. "Look, you're right, Lil. Let's just... forget everything about what everyone expects of us. Let's just be."

I let out a slow breath and tug the room service menu from the bedside table. "Hungry?" I ask.

[kane_goddess]

A small laugh escapes my lips and I grin at him. "Of course I'm right Logan, I'm Lilly Kane, I'm always right." I playfully bit and then kissed his neck. "I like that 'just be' idea. I can just be naked all night curled up with a half dressed you and not have to worry about my brother coming in and getting a perv or my parents coming in and having a total spaz out. That's bliss right there."

He moves and grabs the room service menu and I nod. "Yes, only thing you fed me all day was soda and sex...not that I'm complaining." I grinned and sat up, not caring that the sheet fell away.

"Hey, I've an idea. Order up...something." I waved my hand dismissing whatever question he came up with. "I don't care what, I'm going to take my cute little ass into the shower and by the time I'm out - hopefully - room service will be here." I turned and gave him a kiss on the cheek, leaning in and running my tongue lightly over his ear just to tease him. "I'll be back."

Grinning I headed into the bathroom, nodding in approval that they had nice towels, a big robe and a nice sized tub. "Logan? Could you see if they can send up some like good shampoo or something? This crap's so not gonna cut it with my hair." Once a princess, always a princess.

[logan_echolls]

"You know, if you're naked, I won't be half dressed for long." There have been too many times we've been walked in on in some sort of activity. Even though every single Kane knew what I was doing at their house (or all kinds of other places) to their daughter/sister, I almost wondered why I was still a frequently invited guest. Out of sight, out of mind, I suppose.

Tease, I think as Lilly does everything in her power to just - No, Lilly's just being herself and you're just being you. Horny and wanting her, as per usual.

She sits up and the sheet falls away. Immediately, I appreciate all the parts of her that she's revealed. Of course, she notices this. She notices whenever anyone decides to check her out. Lilly flaunts it. When you got it, flaunt it. Baby, flaunt it.

I'm pretty sure that most of the words are nothing much that I should be listening to. There's the occasional Order up and Shower that I happen to bother hearing. Though, I should be hearing better with the ear lick. She bounces up and heads towards the bathroom. It's Lilly and... God, she drives me crazy.

"Logan? Could you see if they can send up some like good shampoo or something? This crap's so not gonna cut it with my hair."

"I'll flash the platinum card or something." And hand deliver the results.

I listened and watched as she shook her head towards me and headed in to the bathroom. Moments later, I could hear the shower running. Soon after, I ordered in some Chinese food and requested better shampoo. Lilly was taking extra long in the shower. I didn't mind. The moment I had the shampoo in my hands I'd sud her hair up myself.

[kane_goddess]

Oh yes, must love the platinum. I think every 09er brat in Neptune has one, or five like Logan and I do. "Thank you." I sweetly singsong, knowing that it wasn't really to thank him but teasingly remind him that I'm naked and heading into the shower. I know Logan and I know him well.

I turned the water on, letting it get hot. Long drives made me crave hotter showers, not sure what that's all about but all I know is that soon it won't be just steam heating up and fogging the mirrors.

Stepping in slowly I let the water run over me, feeling it run over my back and shoulders. I can feel almost instantly relaxed. Dipping my head back I let the water wash over me, feeling the weight of the water on my hair as it fell down my back.

"Logan..." I called out when I heard the door to the hotel room close. "I've been in here for fifteen minutes, you're not. Have I lost my appeal? Do I have to watch as you trade me in for some fifteen year old with smaller but perky tits?" I nearly jump when the shower curtain is pulled back hard and he's standing there still in jeans with this look in his eyes. "Yes baby?"

[logan_echolls]

You'd think that Lilly would need a cold shower after all that she goes through. The mirrors were quickly steaming up and the fact was that that girl has a little something called stamina. She knew was she wanted. Had her cake and wanted to lick the frosting off until she got tired, bored or sick of it.

I held the shampoo with one hand and the curtain with the other. It was one of the fruity or flowery smelling ones that she liked to use.

I was going to say something like 'Room service came' but the look of Lilly in front of me naked and dripping wet with hot water still pounding down over her hair on on her skin drove me immediately mad with desire. There was no problem, she had invited me in anyway.

I pulled her quickly towards me for a hard bruising kiss. My fingers curled into her soaked hair. With one hand I discarded my jeans and my boxers as I stepped out of them and into the shower. I tugged her body close - hard - against mine.

[kane_goddess]

"Fuck." I mutter against his lips, pulling him closer and running my hands hard down his arms, my hands meeting at his waist and pulling him closer to me.

I cried out and felt his hand run down my thigh, gripping me and wrapping my leg around his waist. "Why hello there." I smirked. "Special kind of room service?" I gasped and grinned up at him.

He didn't say anything, he just touched my face again, his hands finding my hair as he kissed me hard, biting my bottom lip and pressing me hard into the shower wall. The hot water poured down as I writhed against him.

I pulled my lips from his and kissed him down his jaw to his neck, feeling his hands find my wrists and pinning them hard against the tiles. "Logan..." I rocked my hips up hard to him, nipping hard against his neck.

[logan_echolls]

"That was the intention, you know." I mutter against her lips with a curl to mine as she curses into my mouth. That's one way I always had a reaction: take her by surprise. I could see it on her mouth and darken in her eyes. She wanted this and she needed the excitement.

She wraps herself around me, her hands and a leg wrapped around my waist as I tugged her closer by her thighs. Lilly gives a small gasp that she thinks is unnoticeable as I thrust against her.

She rocks immediately up against me and I groan back into the cavity of her mouth as I slipped a hand up, brushing past her breasts, to hold her jaw.

"God, Lilly, did you want me so much that the water had to be this hot. I look at our skin together and it's more than just a rosy flushed look. The water made up look like we were getting sun burnt. I grind up against her again and kiss the corner of her lips.

[kane_goddess]

"Always want you Echolls, always." I panted hard against his skin, leaning up and kissing him hard, digging my fingers into his shoulders before dragging my free hand down his chest.

Pulling back from his lips, I kept my eyes on him as I drug my nails sharply down his chest, a mischievous grin curved on my lips when I wrapped my hand around him. "So are we just teasing tonight Logan?"

His answer was in the form of a bruising kiss, his hand fisted in my hair and pulling me tightly against him. He used his free hand to pull my hand from between his legs, lifting my leg higher and slowly slid into me.

My body trembled as he slowly sank into me, hitting every raw nerve in my body and making that knot of pleasure at the base of my spine grow.

I rocked my hips up to him and tightened my leg around his waist, keeping him deep inside me. Next hotel we went to needed to have a hot tub.