[And because he's level four, he can't lie at all. And he's compelled to tell the truth.]
I don't want to talk about it, but it's starting to seem like I don't really have a choice. It was always easier to just. You know. Ignore it. Don't think about it and it won't bother you. But then sometimes it would just... come up, and once it comes up it doesn't go away, you know? And we never wanted anyone else involved. It was our problem, we dealt with it, and now we're kind of dancing around the subject forever. Maybe it's not healthy and maybe it's not the best idea, but it works.
No, it isn't healthy. But Mayfield doesn't particularly care if we need time to process the horrible things that are done before it piles another on us.
I know people are being... encouraged to start talking. I just wanted to make sure you were okay. Because talking about traumas to actually process them instead of burying the scars and hoping they'll go away is good, but it's better if it's your choice.
I don't want to talk about it. I never want to talk about it. I just want to go home. Home, where even when life was at its worst all I had to deal with was being disowned by my father and practically cast out from my tribe, but at least I could do something about it.
[He can't stop talking and he wants to shut up he just wants to go home and he wants to stop talking but he can't stop talking and gods he's going to start crying again he hates that]
[He's quiet for a moment, trying to get himself under control, but he can't stay quiet for long. He has to tell her.]
My village had been fighting the dragons for centuries, and then I come along and was just a failure at everything, so when I finally did down a dragon, I... couldn't kill it. I let him go, and we became friends, and... I learned to ride him. But when the village found out... my dad, the village chief, he... he disowned me and used Toothless to find the dragon nest.
So I got the rest of the kids to ride dragons and follow them because... well there was a huge dragon controlling all the others and I tried to tell them but he wouldn't listen he never listened. Anyway so we followed and by the time they got there the giant dragon was fighting the villagers and my dad and... well we got Toothless free and Toothless and I ended up killing it. I almost died. But I lost my leg instead. And... the dragons calmed down after that because the giant dragon was controlling them all that time and so when I got brought here the
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Good - even with personal injury, it ended up better for your village.
It sounds like active solutions suit you better. I think understand your interest in the forge. You do very good work. I've been telling those that need blades and such about you. I'm trying to give others a chance to work with you before I ask for another knife. I still need to find materials that will work for it.
[ Her eyes are wider as she tries to stop the torrent of words. ]
These are things you should feel good about accomplishing.
[ She finally clamps her teeth together for a moment. ]
Yeah, I think it's part of the Viking thing. Usually we're not good at talking stuff out ever although I was always different but yeah for me it's better if I just... do something...
...thanks. That's... yeah. Helpful. I like having stuff to do.
If you feel up to it, that might be the best thing for you to do. The work sometimes can help your concentration, and help you sort out things in your head.
I'm usually available to listen, and if you decide you want to talk while you work, let me know.
I was planning on making another phone call asking if anyone needed anything done soon anyway, since we've got a bunch of new people... so yeah I probably will soon.
[ The heck with asking permission, this is an emergency. ]
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Oh. Hi.
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[ This isn't an intervention, but suddenly it sure feels like it from this side. ]
I'm meddling, and you can tell me to shove off, but... that's a heck of a lot for anyone to deal with in that short of a time.
Do you want to talk about it? That's what I did back home, listening.
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I don't want to talk about it, but it's starting to seem like I don't really have a choice. It was always easier to just. You know. Ignore it. Don't think about it and it won't bother you. But then sometimes it would just... come up, and once it comes up it doesn't go away, you know? And we never wanted anyone else involved. It was our problem, we dealt with it, and now we're kind of dancing around the subject forever. Maybe it's not healthy and maybe it's not the best idea, but it works.
[Gods why is he just spilling everything?]
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I know people are being... encouraged to start talking. I just wanted to make sure you were okay. Because talking about traumas to actually process them instead of burying the scars and hoping they'll go away is good, but it's better if it's your choice.
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[He can't stop talking and he wants to shut up he just wants to go home and he wants to stop talking but he can't stop talking and gods he's going to start crying again he hates that]
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Please, tell me what you did.
[ Because the gods know Hiccup could use a positive note now. ]
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My village had been fighting the dragons for centuries, and then I come along and was just a failure at everything, so when I finally did down a dragon, I... couldn't kill it. I let him go, and we became friends, and... I learned to ride him. But when the village found out... my dad, the village chief, he... he disowned me and used Toothless to find the dragon nest.
So I got the rest of the kids to ride dragons and follow them because... well there was a huge dragon controlling all the others and I tried to tell them but he wouldn't listen he never listened. Anyway so we followed and by the time they got there the giant dragon was fighting the villagers and my dad and... well we got Toothless free and Toothless and I ended up killing it. I almost died. But I lost my leg instead. And... the dragons calmed down after that because the giant dragon was controlling them all that time and so when I got brought here the ( ... )
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It sounds like active solutions suit you better. I think understand your interest in the forge. You do very good work. I've been telling those that need blades and such about you. I'm trying to give others a chance to work with you before I ask for another knife. I still need to find materials that will work for it.
[ Her eyes are wider as she tries to stop the torrent of words. ]
These are things you should feel good about accomplishing.
[ She finally clamps her teeth together for a moment. ]
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...thanks. That's... yeah. Helpful. I like having stuff to do.
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I'm usually available to listen, and if you decide you want to talk while you work, let me know.
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...thanks. I'll... I'll keep that in mind.
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