the faster we're falling, we're stopping and stalling.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. <---I've reacted.
Something in what you said made me realize A LOT. You can think what you want about how I handled things. I did what was right. and by doing what was right, I ended up losing in the end, BUT LOOK AT YOU. SO happy. ::smirk:: I'm no longer sad, no longer depressed, no longer wishing I had you. You walked away cause of my feelings and now I'm going to do the same. As much as I want you, this isn't worth it. I didn't start to want you cause I couldn't have you. It was because I realized if I didn't speak up you'd be gone. And look, you left. I won't forget everything I did or the way I acted, but I will ALWAYS remember that you said always and didn't stick to it. That means more to mean than you could ever understand. You just made it on to a list. And you're right, we won't ever be as close, I've got a shield up now. I was too in love to let this go, but now, I'm just angry. Thanks for always listening and "taking it like a champ." I really do appreciate it and you know damn well I can't handle things well, so reminding me of the morning with Adrian and TELLING ME THAT GEORGIA THOUGHT IT WAS HILARIOUS...uncalled for...and i dont care how "happy" you think you are, telling me the whole story again, intentionally to make me hate you/hurt me...ISN'T YOU. The Kris I knew wouldn't be so vindictive. And if all of my actions have made you want to treat me that way...then, I don't want anything to do with you. You no longer exist in my world.
It feels like I just took a ton of bricks off of my chest. Going to Long Island. :) Real friends and no girl drama. THANK FUCKING GOD.
I need to add something...What makes me so angry:
-you said always and didn't think twice
-you left me cause I said I was in love with you
-you didn't man up and tell me you know I was in love with you
-I may have lead things to fall apart, but you watched.
-I was so hurt and confused as to why I couldn't be your friend, cause feelings are just feelings and I wouldn't have ever acted on them...so I drank and I guess I was frustrated, not justifying what i did, but that's what lead to it. Now, I look like this monster and it's not fair
-you just act like we never had something really special and different
-and as far as caty goes, if you didn't want to hear it...you should have fucking said something, but that's what FRIENDS do...they listen and they are there for their friends. AND THAT'S ALL YOU WERE AT THE TIME. a fucking friend. sorry it took me so long to realize how i felt and even longer to tell you, but at least i did.
-you intentionally tried to hurt me
with all that said,
I haven't felt the way, I feel today
In so long it's hard for me to specify
I'm beginning to notice
How much this feels like a waking limb
Pins and needles, nice to know you
Good-bye, Nice to Know You
Something in what you said made me realize A LOT. You can think what you want about how I handled things. I did what was right. and by doing what was right, I ended up losing in the end, BUT LOOK AT YOU. SO happy. ::smirk:: I'm no longer sad, no longer depressed, no longer wishing I had you. You walked away cause of my feelings and now I'm going to do the same. As much as I want you, this isn't worth it. I didn't start to want you cause I couldn't have you. It was because I realized if I didn't speak up you'd be gone. And look, you left. I won't forget everything I did or the way I acted, but I will ALWAYS remember that you said always and didn't stick to it. That means more to mean than you could ever understand. You just made it on to a list. And you're right, we won't ever be as close, I've got a shield up now. I was too in love to let this go, but now, I'm just angry. Thanks for always listening and "taking it like a champ." I really do appreciate it and you know damn well I can't handle things well, so reminding me of the morning with Adrian and TELLING ME THAT GEORGIA THOUGHT IT WAS HILARIOUS...uncalled for...and i dont care how "happy" you think you are, telling me the whole story again, intentionally to make me hate you/hurt me...ISN'T YOU. The Kris I knew wouldn't be so vindictive. And if all of my actions have made you want to treat me that way...then, I don't want anything to do with you. You no longer exist in my world.
It feels like I just took a ton of bricks off of my chest. Going to Long Island. :) Real friends and no girl drama. THANK FUCKING GOD.
I need to add something...What makes me so angry:
-you said always and didn't think twice
-you left me cause I said I was in love with you
-you didn't man up and tell me you know I was in love with you
-I may have lead things to fall apart, but you watched.
-I was so hurt and confused as to why I couldn't be your friend, cause feelings are just feelings and I wouldn't have ever acted on them...so I drank and I guess I was frustrated, not justifying what i did, but that's what lead to it. Now, I look like this monster and it's not fair
-you just act like we never had something really special and different
-and as far as caty goes, if you didn't want to hear it...you should have fucking said something, but that's what FRIENDS do...they listen and they are there for their friends. AND THAT'S ALL YOU WERE AT THE TIME. a fucking friend. sorry it took me so long to realize how i felt and even longer to tell you, but at least i did.
-you intentionally tried to hurt me
with all that said,
I haven't felt the way, I feel today
In so long it's hard for me to specify
I'm beginning to notice
How much this feels like a waking limb
Pins and needles, nice to know you
Good-bye, Nice to Know You