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day 6.
my goodness. this heat is ridiculous.
another day of rehearsal. not bad, ran through act one, then moved on to act 2, and we actually covered a bunch of new scenes today. it may have been the heat, or perhaps the fact that today i had a real lunch (thanks to henrik, who had us all over for lunch & so that we could see our costumes) but after coming back to rehearsal, my head was just gone. i couldn't speak, i couldn't read, when i tried to speak even in english it was disjointed and i don't think i made much sense. it took me time after time after time again and again to get simple blocking down, or to make simple changes in long lines, to give variation... it was ridiculous, i was so frustrated with myself. after a while, i started little giggle fits, and i hate not being able to control them.
even though i went into a sub-conscious (or at least less than conscious) state, i still think that it went well. fortunately i have had the time to continue to work on memorizing lines, and i'll be fine. i hope. bigger hope is that my brain lets me work, lets me process and read when i need to, and remembers all of this information.
lunch was really nice. it was good to be able to sit and talk with christian francine carl and henrik. and francine's baby boy is so precious. ! adorable. the cherries were so good. everything from freud to roommates was covered, from watering the garden to dogs... it was just good to talk. of course the transfer came up, and i explained myself with a more honest but still respectfully restrained answer about what i felt while at niagara. a little awkward, considering that henrik was my professor, and that the conversation opened up with him asking why his star french pupil was leaving, but i think at least there it was clear that though nu isn't where i'll be, there still will be good lines of contact (i hope.)
the bridge on my ukulele broke clear off today. it may have been the heat, but i don't think so, it was just very strange, and it made me quite sad. [sigh]
back to memorization. i really need to get silvia's act together. she's all over the board at times for me, and i don't know that she should be.
my goodness. this heat is ridiculous.
another day of rehearsal. not bad, ran through act one, then moved on to act 2, and we actually covered a bunch of new scenes today. it may have been the heat, or perhaps the fact that today i had a real lunch (thanks to henrik, who had us all over for lunch & so that we could see our costumes) but after coming back to rehearsal, my head was just gone. i couldn't speak, i couldn't read, when i tried to speak even in english it was disjointed and i don't think i made much sense. it took me time after time after time again and again to get simple blocking down, or to make simple changes in long lines, to give variation... it was ridiculous, i was so frustrated with myself. after a while, i started little giggle fits, and i hate not being able to control them.
even though i went into a sub-conscious (or at least less than conscious) state, i still think that it went well. fortunately i have had the time to continue to work on memorizing lines, and i'll be fine. i hope. bigger hope is that my brain lets me work, lets me process and read when i need to, and remembers all of this information.
lunch was really nice. it was good to be able to sit and talk with christian francine carl and henrik. and francine's baby boy is so precious. ! adorable. the cherries were so good. everything from freud to roommates was covered, from watering the garden to dogs... it was just good to talk. of course the transfer came up, and i explained myself with a more honest but still respectfully restrained answer about what i felt while at niagara. a little awkward, considering that henrik was my professor, and that the conversation opened up with him asking why his star french pupil was leaving, but i think at least there it was clear that though nu isn't where i'll be, there still will be good lines of contact (i hope.)
the bridge on my ukulele broke clear off today. it may have been the heat, but i don't think so, it was just very strange, and it made me quite sad. [sigh]
back to memorization. i really need to get silvia's act together. she's all over the board at times for me, and i don't know that she should be.