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Last day at Northern as a student. Finals are over and I start work on Sunday.
I don't start school again until Valentines Day, which I'm sure is going to be a shitty day.
We dropped Maureen's friend off at O'hare yesterday at 6 in the morning and I got kind of reminiscent. For some reason The Get Up Kids were stuck in my head and so was she. It's been two and a half years...I mean seriously, I don't even really talk to her anymore yet there is still an issue. I still miss her. I really do. I think that's why I don't really try to start anything with anyone. I get so many crushes and I think that is because I'm just looking for something. Anything. Obviously, me doing this is stupid, but I really can't help it. It sucks, cause I know that I'm just trying to make myself happy for a night, but I convince myself that anyone could be the one or something. There have been a few people since her that I really know that I cared for. Jacqui was one. ____ is always one. Just because she is ____. And now I am fascinated by someone, and can see myself with them, yet I have completely forgotten how to talk to girls. I get nervous. I feel awkward. It's almost like being in high school.
Columbia here I come.
Ulta. Well, fuck Ulta. I hate it, but I might be promoted to manager in a couple of months.
Moving back home after two and a half years is going to be weird, but I think it is what I need. I think I'll figure some shit out. Hopefully I will get her out of my mind completely. Hopefully I can get over this nervousness too and just fucking grow up...cause I do dig her alot.
Funny how I know so little, and that is more than enough.
Read The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay by Michael Chabon. It's thick as hell, but worth it.
And I'm done. Havent gotten shit off the chest in a while, and its a slight relief.
I don't start school again until Valentines Day, which I'm sure is going to be a shitty day.
We dropped Maureen's friend off at O'hare yesterday at 6 in the morning and I got kind of reminiscent. For some reason The Get Up Kids were stuck in my head and so was she. It's been two and a half years...I mean seriously, I don't even really talk to her anymore yet there is still an issue. I still miss her. I really do. I think that's why I don't really try to start anything with anyone. I get so many crushes and I think that is because I'm just looking for something. Anything. Obviously, me doing this is stupid, but I really can't help it. It sucks, cause I know that I'm just trying to make myself happy for a night, but I convince myself that anyone could be the one or something. There have been a few people since her that I really know that I cared for. Jacqui was one. ____ is always one. Just because she is ____. And now I am fascinated by someone, and can see myself with them, yet I have completely forgotten how to talk to girls. I get nervous. I feel awkward. It's almost like being in high school.
Columbia here I come.
Ulta. Well, fuck Ulta. I hate it, but I might be promoted to manager in a couple of months.
Moving back home after two and a half years is going to be weird, but I think it is what I need. I think I'll figure some shit out. Hopefully I will get her out of my mind completely. Hopefully I can get over this nervousness too and just fucking grow up...cause I do dig her alot.
Funny how I know so little, and that is more than enough.
Read The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay by Michael Chabon. It's thick as hell, but worth it.
And I'm done. Havent gotten shit off the chest in a while, and its a slight relief.