whirling smoke of confusion
Stuff has been pretty shitty lately. I feel shitty. I guess i just feel more hopless than anything. I am way sick of my parents nagging the shit out of me, they make me nutz. I was thinking man summer is gonna rock, i am goin to get a break from my parents, be able to do things with friends, and mainly just be able to relax. Thats not happening. I try to tell myself, dont let it go to your head, but fuck what am i talking about, everything goes to my head, whether i want it to or not, i am beggining to realize more and more just how neurotic i am, my brain rules over me. The horror of non stop action of brain activity. At least im not a worry wart anymore, hell i dont give a shit about any thing anymore, now is the time not to care i guess, its just happening to me, this could be a bad thing. I fall into times like this, sometimes hard. Its an inpenatrable pit of doom, thats how i see it. Man i am drunk, i need to shut up, why do i do this, sit here and ramble. Fuck livejournal, this is not the place for me to go right now.