Kalifornia
To be clear from the start I have never been to California.
however, I have lived there for 2 and a half years.
California, being a state, has been my painful state of mine during this duration.
How does one compete with where they have never been?
My dilemma is that I thought the struggle had always been geographical,
not the state of mind of what California does to others.
Historically, it has been the state of dreams, and though dreams are not reality, this is what
California means to me...a state of unreality, dreams lost and hope that still exists after you visit
this place of surreal illusion that plagues the drifters who didn't dare enough
That's the problem when you leave California, one believes that they didn't try hard enough, find the right agent, wife, lover, or career. I don't recall the love's quest of finding the meaning of life, in a geographical place. However, part of the dilusion is expecting California to have life's answer's, and at times, at the expense of the ones that will help you find all the meaning to life's questions, without a geographical place.
some would say..it's the beautiful weather. If weather is always beautiful, what time of year do you suffer with your thoughts? Some might say that there is more opportunity there...if you rely on one place for opportunity, you will ignore the rest of opportunities elsewhere. Talent is lush and vast and more than in one place.
It's a myth to believe to believe that anyone greater was there, that opportunity is Only there or that love is there. All of these things are everywhere. The reason California succeeds is because people go there to find it. The problem, is that it is everywhere, and the ex-Cali's just can't recognize it.
Here, in the brutual midwest, Love, talent, and illusion are still present. I'll stay here in the cold, winter months to reflect...the slowing down of life, that is out of our control, to reflect on warmer places like California. Finding happiness now, where we are, is all that has ever mattered.
however, I have lived there for 2 and a half years.
California, being a state, has been my painful state of mine during this duration.
How does one compete with where they have never been?
My dilemma is that I thought the struggle had always been geographical,
not the state of mind of what California does to others.
Historically, it has been the state of dreams, and though dreams are not reality, this is what
California means to me...a state of unreality, dreams lost and hope that still exists after you visit
this place of surreal illusion that plagues the drifters who didn't dare enough
That's the problem when you leave California, one believes that they didn't try hard enough, find the right agent, wife, lover, or career. I don't recall the love's quest of finding the meaning of life, in a geographical place. However, part of the dilusion is expecting California to have life's answer's, and at times, at the expense of the ones that will help you find all the meaning to life's questions, without a geographical place.
some would say..it's the beautiful weather. If weather is always beautiful, what time of year do you suffer with your thoughts? Some might say that there is more opportunity there...if you rely on one place for opportunity, you will ignore the rest of opportunities elsewhere. Talent is lush and vast and more than in one place.
It's a myth to believe to believe that anyone greater was there, that opportunity is Only there or that love is there. All of these things are everywhere. The reason California succeeds is because people go there to find it. The problem, is that it is everywhere, and the ex-Cali's just can't recognize it.
Here, in the brutual midwest, Love, talent, and illusion are still present. I'll stay here in the cold, winter months to reflect...the slowing down of life, that is out of our control, to reflect on warmer places like California. Finding happiness now, where we are, is all that has ever mattered.