Meow
I haven't written in this for a long time. I feel bad. Like I left a certain depth to me in the middle of no where. I've begun going to poetry readings and things of the like. I lost my deepest depth and I'm finding it through a strange awakening. I hope to write again. I hope to bring this inner hurting to surface and not let it fall on deaf ears. I'm in pain and desperately need to heal.
I know the game, I know I create my own reality. I just have to get through this little painful stumble. I want to wake up and not feel rejected. I lose myself in this positive facade. All I really want to say is Fuck it All..and I mean really fuck it all.
Time is the constant barrier to my healing. I wish I could do a Quantum Leap. I wish he wouldv'e stuck around to see that beauty resurface that he first saw. He stood in his own way of seeing it. It was always there...
Battle to battle I hate to lose. I loved him so much. I did it right this time I tell myself..but, you you only get turned on when I....take out the trash
when I ...fold the laundry
when I...rehang my wet towel
You can't judge my depth by those things
I had my Philosophy paper on your desk for three months asking you to see some of my depth and you never read it
You loved the depth you first saw and now its gone
It was always there
I want to walk through those gardens again when I first wrote my vows of love to you...when you inspired me..I want to relive love like the first time all over again.
I deluded myself in that garden
I thought you were listening and now I realize...I just wanted someone to LISTEN and you never did...I wanted it SOOOO bad that I played make-believe and diluded myself into thinking you did.
Come to think of it...you didn't listen to me that day. That was the day I should've known that all that is now would be here again.
You never saw my depth.
It was always there
It was always there
I know the game, I know I create my own reality. I just have to get through this little painful stumble. I want to wake up and not feel rejected. I lose myself in this positive facade. All I really want to say is Fuck it All..and I mean really fuck it all.
Time is the constant barrier to my healing. I wish I could do a Quantum Leap. I wish he wouldv'e stuck around to see that beauty resurface that he first saw. He stood in his own way of seeing it. It was always there...
Battle to battle I hate to lose. I loved him so much. I did it right this time I tell myself..but, you you only get turned on when I....take out the trash
when I ...fold the laundry
when I...rehang my wet towel
You can't judge my depth by those things
I had my Philosophy paper on your desk for three months asking you to see some of my depth and you never read it
You loved the depth you first saw and now its gone
It was always there
I want to walk through those gardens again when I first wrote my vows of love to you...when you inspired me..I want to relive love like the first time all over again.
I deluded myself in that garden
I thought you were listening and now I realize...I just wanted someone to LISTEN and you never did...I wanted it SOOOO bad that I played make-believe and diluded myself into thinking you did.
Come to think of it...you didn't listen to me that day. That was the day I should've known that all that is now would be here again.
You never saw my depth.
It was always there
It was always there