hmm
sometimes i feel like i don't have any friends. i mean no one ever calls me, i mean no one. and i don't really have a group. i see pictures of other peoples groups and i wish i could have that. i just think "they seem like they have so much fun together". i want that.
and sometimes i think that the friends i do have don't really like me. i don't know why i think that because i mean they are my friends so obviously they like me at least a little. but i always feel like i am doing all the work to keep the friendship going, and that if i stoped they would just forget about me very easily. sometimes i do think that i am easy to forget. i mean i am pretty boring in every way. plain looks, plain personality, plain life. nothing of interest to keep someone interested for very long.
sometimes i feel very lonely. i mean i know i am not alone technically. but i do feel lonely a lot.
and sometimes i think that the friends i do have don't really like me. i don't know why i think that because i mean they are my friends so obviously they like me at least a little. but i always feel like i am doing all the work to keep the friendship going, and that if i stoped they would just forget about me very easily. sometimes i do think that i am easy to forget. i mean i am pretty boring in every way. plain looks, plain personality, plain life. nothing of interest to keep someone interested for very long.
sometimes i feel very lonely. i mean i know i am not alone technically. but i do feel lonely a lot.