I Am Tired. (Super Rant)
I am tired.
So So Tired.
And when I am not tired... I am sick. Sick and Tired.
I am so sick and tired of my family members (mainly one) taking out their frustrations on me, as if I am some punching bag... Just b/c I actually listen to your problems and don't judge or care instead of ignore you like my other siblings, doesn't give you the right to down right use me as your virtual garbage bag for all your anger and rage. I am gonna snap one of these days and start choking motherfuckers. I was that close tonight. Visualization. Right there in my head.
I am so sick and tired of trifling family members (particularly one) as well. Please take care of your family. Don't be a n***a. Like actually call and help out your family in their time of need. We didn't ask to be in this world. You know, if you are gonna tell someone that you are gonna help them or be at a certain place...actually follow thru... common courtesy. There is a difference between sperm donors and father/dads...and you are tipping towards the sperm donor side. Also, men , if you got a kid or two or ten... take care of your kids. A man that don't/won't provide for his children is a man that needs to be taken out back and flogged and brand and neutered...then stoned for his extreme triflingness.
I am so sick and tired of not having money. I swear, I save and save and save and some shit comes up that depletes my earnings. Like this piece of shit car, or this student fucking loans, or the fucking light bill. it is always something. Never fucking fails.
I am so sick and tired of the state of our country. High gas prices. Shitty ass economy. A war we should not be fighting. The widening gap between rich and poor. The subtraction of civil liberties and out right denial of my rights. It is time I fight back.
I am so sick and tired of trying to appease and soften the effect of my blackness from people. Yes I am black. Yes I agree with affirmative action. Yes, Blacks aren't afforded the same opportunity or on an equal playing field as their white counterparts. Quit fooling yourselves. Yes, the hip-hop record industry has hoodwinked blacks into thinking we are gangstas and bitches/hoes. No, most black folks do not live in the ghetto. Yes, most black folks are just as scared of white folks as they are of us. Yes, Condoleezza Rice is a coon. Yes. I just said that Condoleezza Rice is a coon. No, just because we see a black person in a position of "power" doesn't mean that black people have made it. If that person does not follow the national perceived black discourse...as Condoskeeza does NOT, then it has an even more damaging effect on the black community. Therefore most black folks believe she is an "Uncle Tom", a puppet for the man. This is not generalization. This is fact. Yes, We need to talk about race more. Race is an every day part of black folks' lives. We can't escape it, why should the rest of America? maybe if there were some dialogue, we could understand each other better. Therefore, make this country better. And no the struggle for equality did not end in 1865, 1964, or 1968.
I am so sick and tired of finding the right guy for me, except he is like fuckin far away. I am like, what the fuck? Is whoever up there fuckin with me? Stop teasing me like this. It is fucking with my emotions and shit. I am already moody and shit. Damn it.
Okay. I feel a bit better. Discuss.
So So Tired.
And when I am not tired... I am sick. Sick and Tired.
I am so sick and tired of my family members (mainly one) taking out their frustrations on me, as if I am some punching bag... Just b/c I actually listen to your problems and don't judge or care instead of ignore you like my other siblings, doesn't give you the right to down right use me as your virtual garbage bag for all your anger and rage. I am gonna snap one of these days and start choking motherfuckers. I was that close tonight. Visualization. Right there in my head.
I am so sick and tired of trifling family members (particularly one) as well. Please take care of your family. Don't be a n***a. Like actually call and help out your family in their time of need. We didn't ask to be in this world. You know, if you are gonna tell someone that you are gonna help them or be at a certain place...actually follow thru... common courtesy. There is a difference between sperm donors and father/dads...and you are tipping towards the sperm donor side. Also, men , if you got a kid or two or ten... take care of your kids. A man that don't/won't provide for his children is a man that needs to be taken out back and flogged and brand and neutered...then stoned for his extreme triflingness.
I am so sick and tired of not having money. I swear, I save and save and save and some shit comes up that depletes my earnings. Like this piece of shit car, or this student fucking loans, or the fucking light bill. it is always something. Never fucking fails.
I am so sick and tired of the state of our country. High gas prices. Shitty ass economy. A war we should not be fighting. The widening gap between rich and poor. The subtraction of civil liberties and out right denial of my rights. It is time I fight back.
I am so sick and tired of trying to appease and soften the effect of my blackness from people. Yes I am black. Yes I agree with affirmative action. Yes, Blacks aren't afforded the same opportunity or on an equal playing field as their white counterparts. Quit fooling yourselves. Yes, the hip-hop record industry has hoodwinked blacks into thinking we are gangstas and bitches/hoes. No, most black folks do not live in the ghetto. Yes, most black folks are just as scared of white folks as they are of us. Yes, Condoleezza Rice is a coon. Yes. I just said that Condoleezza Rice is a coon. No, just because we see a black person in a position of "power" doesn't mean that black people have made it. If that person does not follow the national perceived black discourse...as Condoskeeza does NOT, then it has an even more damaging effect on the black community. Therefore most black folks believe she is an "Uncle Tom", a puppet for the man. This is not generalization. This is fact. Yes, We need to talk about race more. Race is an every day part of black folks' lives. We can't escape it, why should the rest of America? maybe if there were some dialogue, we could understand each other better. Therefore, make this country better. And no the struggle for equality did not end in 1865, 1964, or 1968.
I am so sick and tired of finding the right guy for me, except he is like fuckin far away. I am like, what the fuck? Is whoever up there fuckin with me? Stop teasing me like this. It is fucking with my emotions and shit. I am already moody and shit. Damn it.
Okay. I feel a bit better. Discuss.