*puts 2009 in a head lock...*
Alright, well, while I've got this under control for a few minutes, let's talk.
The transmission in my old car died. Being that it was a 1984 Crown Victoria LTD, that's not terribly surprising, even accounting for it only having about 80,000 miles on it. After scrambling for two and a half weeks, having three cars literally sold only minutes before I reserved them, getting rejected for a loan and then driving back to Pennsylvania to take out a loan through my parents, I managed to get a 2004 Chevy Caviler with fairly low mileage at a decent price.
I then promptly broke it within twenty-four hours of owning it, further demonstrating that I am a walking entropy magnet for cars. Still, that problem has been dealt with and I'm hoping I bought a car that had a problem, not a car that is a problem. Soon, the LTD will be towed and junked; my only regret is that I can't give Lisa's brother enough time to rip the engine out of it for his own use.
So, onto the next source of stress for me, the impending move. With only a few days to go, I can't get the gas turned on because Columbia Gas can't seem to find the street address. This is made more frustrating because I briefly worked for them and know it's probably because somebody on their end typed it in wrong. So now I need to find a meter number to get the service set up. In addition, due to the car problem, we're behind on our packing and it's starting to look like we won't have anyone to help us move. Hell, it's starting to look like having to rent the old place an additional two weeks is going to turn out to be a good thing.
That seems to be the theme of this year so far for me; turning problems into solutions. The aforementioned extra lease time. The death of my old car, which forced me to get a (hopefully) more reliable car and take out a loan that should give me enough cash to consolidate all my bad debt and improve my credit. Even my job situation, which deserves a post of its own.
So far, the best thing 2009 has given me is another one of those situations; I was forced to confront how terrified I am of being abandoned by those I love. How I'm frightened that if I can't carry myself through a crisis without any help, everyone I know will grow to hate me and leave. It's a problem I've always had to some extent, but I hadn't realized how much the breakup with my ex had exacerbated the problem until recently. So I made a conscious effort to change my way of thinking and turn this problem into another solution.
To help combat that, I'm returning to writing. I gave up on it almost two years ago because I just couldn't do things perfectly. Of course I can't; nobody is and despite how much I've written, in the grand scheme, it's very little. Even before I quit, I made little excuses here and there, thinking I could do it when things were calmer. Of course, things never truly settle down in life and there's always some crisis looming over the horizon. So in addition to forcing myself to post more frequently in LJ (which was put on hold due to the craziness with the car), I'm going to occasionally be posting snippets of stories.
Quite frankly, if I don't, my head is going to explode. I've got so many ideas running through my head right now that it's hard to think at times. I guess we'll see how this goes as well.
*...proceeds to start punching 2009 in the face*
The transmission in my old car died. Being that it was a 1984 Crown Victoria LTD, that's not terribly surprising, even accounting for it only having about 80,000 miles on it. After scrambling for two and a half weeks, having three cars literally sold only minutes before I reserved them, getting rejected for a loan and then driving back to Pennsylvania to take out a loan through my parents, I managed to get a 2004 Chevy Caviler with fairly low mileage at a decent price.
I then promptly broke it within twenty-four hours of owning it, further demonstrating that I am a walking entropy magnet for cars. Still, that problem has been dealt with and I'm hoping I bought a car that had a problem, not a car that is a problem. Soon, the LTD will be towed and junked; my only regret is that I can't give Lisa's brother enough time to rip the engine out of it for his own use.
So, onto the next source of stress for me, the impending move. With only a few days to go, I can't get the gas turned on because Columbia Gas can't seem to find the street address. This is made more frustrating because I briefly worked for them and know it's probably because somebody on their end typed it in wrong. So now I need to find a meter number to get the service set up. In addition, due to the car problem, we're behind on our packing and it's starting to look like we won't have anyone to help us move. Hell, it's starting to look like having to rent the old place an additional two weeks is going to turn out to be a good thing.
That seems to be the theme of this year so far for me; turning problems into solutions. The aforementioned extra lease time. The death of my old car, which forced me to get a (hopefully) more reliable car and take out a loan that should give me enough cash to consolidate all my bad debt and improve my credit. Even my job situation, which deserves a post of its own.
So far, the best thing 2009 has given me is another one of those situations; I was forced to confront how terrified I am of being abandoned by those I love. How I'm frightened that if I can't carry myself through a crisis without any help, everyone I know will grow to hate me and leave. It's a problem I've always had to some extent, but I hadn't realized how much the breakup with my ex had exacerbated the problem until recently. So I made a conscious effort to change my way of thinking and turn this problem into another solution.
To help combat that, I'm returning to writing. I gave up on it almost two years ago because I just couldn't do things perfectly. Of course I can't; nobody is and despite how much I've written, in the grand scheme, it's very little. Even before I quit, I made little excuses here and there, thinking I could do it when things were calmer. Of course, things never truly settle down in life and there's always some crisis looming over the horizon. So in addition to forcing myself to post more frequently in LJ (which was put on hold due to the craziness with the car), I'm going to occasionally be posting snippets of stories.
Quite frankly, if I don't, my head is going to explode. I've got so many ideas running through my head right now that it's hard to think at times. I guess we'll see how this goes as well.
*...proceeds to start punching 2009 in the face*