Poem-The Tool You Use

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As I read this one again, I realized I really liked it. I think it accurately described what I was going through during that time.

Created by Ashley on Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Stupid to love, why even try
Don't need it right
What if I were a robot, a zombie
The walking, breathing defect
How many times will I mess up
What I do is never good enough
So hurt me now
And I will be just fine
Built up an immuntiy to your attacks
I am not so weak, like you want me to be
So tear me down, I will rebuild myself
Should be used to it by now
I am just a clown, so make fun of me
It is my job to look like a dork
Let me be your entertainment
That is all I am good for anyway
I am the puppet and this is a game
So pull my strings, the ones that make me cry
I am not a human, just a toy right
A tool that you used to make you feel better
Can you sleep well at night
Or do I have to assure you that things are fine
When you are bleeding
Allow me to still be your bandage
Can't abandon someone in need
I am not so great, but maybe I can heal you
Maybe I am enough for just a second
The second that you treat me with decency
The moment in time when I can be proud of myself
Actually be important and mean something
So let me become unattached to you
But you can still attack me
I will just by numb
My pain will not be forever
But your happiness will
So abuse me, because that is what makes you okay
Tell me what you are going through
Trust me, I wish you no harm
I will lend you my arm to use
My heart, so you'll have something to break
My brain, so you will have advice
And my life, so you can live happily
And I will just be the robot
That isn't really me