Rain = Gloomy Mood.
The weather has been so depressing these days. Raining and gloomy for two weeks now with no sun.
I wonder when this giant dark cloud of sorrow will go away lol cause i hate it.
Anyways, I started driving school and its really boring.
But the teacher is so funny & he has a long ass name too LOL
Ahh, but still boring is boring and from 6 PM to 9 PM really sucks the energy outta me.
I wonder why people yell.
+ I hate it when 아빠 & 정은 yell at my mom.
+ They have no right to yell at her.
+ So I yelled at them for yelling at her.
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=Yelling is not good for anyone. It just leads to more yelling.
I'm going to write a series of notes directed at certain people. I kinda wish they knew who they were and at the same time i wish they didn't.
Dear You,
1: I'm so sorry. Its been 4 years since I ruined the chance of ever becoming friends again. Then again, I came back being the same old me but you changed so much I didn't know how to react to it. I felt intimidated and "lower" than you and I didn't know how to act. Now that you just dont care about me anymore and don't have thesame feelings, I understand but I can't even try to make itup to you. So i'm sorry for that too. I guess this is the final time I'm going to say sorry to you because I've tried to connect with you again but it didn't work. We're on two totally differnt planets now & four years is long enough. i've gotten over it like you did now but i will never forget you.
2: I dont like you. Why can't you make up your mind? Its been fucking three years...it really shouldn't take that long for someone to make up their mind and keep their promises. Fine then, go ahead and ditch me again. For three years i've been accpeting you back but you took that for granted. Your on your way to leaving me again and i bet you a million dollars your ganna come back with your nose up high like you do every single time. I can't do that anymore, i'm sick and tired of it.
3: I will never forget all the good memories we shared. I know we ended off on an extremely sour note but hey, thats life. I'm so glad to have met you again and really, thanks for the memories. You shared with me and showed me so many new things that I probably would've missed if it weren't for you. I apologize for my mistakes, & i forgive you for being sucha prick (lol). Anyways, i wont forget you either :]
4: You're a stranger :) But i think we hit it off well. We'll see where this goes but in the meantime I'm not going to give in so easily. I've put my gaurd up because of the things i've been through these past months but if you impress me enough and i'll put my gaurd down.
5: You're a stranger too! But i've seen you for the past 3 years once every week & you've seen me too. I dont have feelings for you or anything & i dont know why but you seem so interesting lol. I keep having this urge to talk to you but i always seem to miss the chance. I know I might come off as mean/shy/ignores you or something but i'm really not, trust me. haha id why but i CAN"T talk to you, i'd LOVE to though. You're adorable, smart and talented . I really really really wanna be your friend and I wanan hang out with you :D
From, Me.