I'm like a sickness
I just wrote a whole entry.
Started this afternoon after getting the inspiration to get back into writing in this thing.
The entry was deep. Maybe the deepest I've ever written.
After a day of on-coming troubles and depressing thoughts I talked to my boyfriend.
Of which most of the entry was about. I deleted it.
I realized that I don't see the best things in my life that are sitting right infront of me. He just has a way with making me feel so much better about things. Sometimes it's best when he says nothing and just lets me cry. He's so gentle and patient with me and he's there for me and sometimes I make him feel like absolute shit. Even though he says I don't. I know I do. I wouldn't be able to stand dating me. I am extreme when I'm an emotional wreck. There is no one in the world (not even my mom) that can make me go from complete depression to the feeling of absolute love. I'm the luckiest person to have such a great guy in my life that cares enough to bring me to that feeling. I can't see myself or my life without him.
I wish everyone could have this feeling.
It kills me to know that some people have been in bad situations and have the exact opposite feeling.
And it makes me wanna kill the people that create those feelings. Enough said.
Point being, I really need to start thinking positively because a lot of my thoughts are affecting things around me. I need to start with a healthy mindset because if I don't I'm afraid something horrible will happen.
Thank god this day is over.
Started this afternoon after getting the inspiration to get back into writing in this thing.
The entry was deep. Maybe the deepest I've ever written.
After a day of on-coming troubles and depressing thoughts I talked to my boyfriend.
Of which most of the entry was about. I deleted it.
I realized that I don't see the best things in my life that are sitting right infront of me. He just has a way with making me feel so much better about things. Sometimes it's best when he says nothing and just lets me cry. He's so gentle and patient with me and he's there for me and sometimes I make him feel like absolute shit. Even though he says I don't. I know I do. I wouldn't be able to stand dating me. I am extreme when I'm an emotional wreck. There is no one in the world (not even my mom) that can make me go from complete depression to the feeling of absolute love. I'm the luckiest person to have such a great guy in my life that cares enough to bring me to that feeling. I can't see myself or my life without him.
I wish everyone could have this feeling.
It kills me to know that some people have been in bad situations and have the exact opposite feeling.
And it makes me wanna kill the people that create those feelings. Enough said.
Point being, I really need to start thinking positively because a lot of my thoughts are affecting things around me. I need to start with a healthy mindset because if I don't I'm afraid something horrible will happen.
Thank god this day is over.