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for the past 3 days i've been teaching myself "Valo Yossa".
[finnish song]
i want to sing it to my kid(s?) someday.
the sorrow never ends. 80!
i began emptying out my room this weekend.
most of its all out in my living room...pushed out of the way.
i found a letter from my ex-girlfriend.
i thought i threw them all out...
unfortunately this was one of the ones she wrote me around the time things really got rough.
she and i...
i didnt want to be seen dating a girl then.
i was afraid of people...and i think she hated me for it.
i'd hate me too.
i dont know.
long story and it's stupid to remember.
i miss her now.
i've been thinking about her all day.
i know she doesnt think of me.
bringing back old pain i thought i had safely blocked away.