wow
so i haven't entered anything in my lj for forever but i had a really bad day, so last night i want to a football game w/ steve z (bf) and i lost him for a while and when i finally met up with him he was standoffish....it was despressing. Then today my mom heard all these rumors about him and he said he thought we were "on different maturity levels"... whatever the fuck that means...so he basically broke up with me.... then we went to this play tonight(as friends with his sis)and its really hard because i really want him back...this sucks like a really cheap whore (not just a cheap one....a REALLY cheap one). so ya...life sucks...time to go sleep it all away....idk how i can ever look at steve as just a friend, he means so much more to me, i just wana cry. It's like having the most awesome friend but wanting s000000 much more than that.....whatever, i dont think i've been so depressed since Pierce died....<3 you steve