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[worldandtime]

OK, yesterday was two dress rehearsals, interrupted by US Awards. Today was two shows, with senior dinner in between. I had to jog from St. Luke's to the VST to get there in time for my scene, but I was very happy that I got to go to the dinner--I had a good group of people at my table, and I think I left only a couple of minutes before the

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[worldandtime]

Yeah, there's definitely a balance between being self-confident enough to give of yourself and being aware-enough-of-others to listen to/value what they have to say. One of the things that's difficult is that the balance is different with different kinds of people (and different circumstances, but the latter is easier to deal with--for me--than the former). It really annoys me, which I suppose it shouldn't, that you periodically have to be an asshole in order to keep from getting walked over. I tend to enjoy much more people who are somewhat in balance themselves as they are less prone, I feel, to taking advantage of me on purpose.

One of the people at work, for instance, talks about "pushback." And to him that seems to mean that if you walk on someone and they don't "push back" at you, everything was fine. That is *such* a different mindset from mine. The irony is that I can be quite an effective son-of-a-bitch but resent having to be.

It's analogous to the times when people tell me I"m being too blunt, and my response is "Blunt? You think this is blunt? I'm not saying half of what I think--I feel I'm being quite tactful, all things considered." And yes, I'm aware of how ironically amusing that is...