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[world_by_storm]

I used to have these dreams of falling fairly constantly.
I would be falling, falling, falling until I hit the ground and woke up on impact.

I hear that they are supposed to represent some sort of fear of failing.
Or at least they signify that you think you're failing.
I've also heard they can mean you feel like you don't control things.

I haven't had these dreams in awhile, which might sound like a good thing to most people.
But I'm having a hard time establishing if I don't have the thought of failing because I see myself as successful and on the right path or if I'm just becoming more apathetic towards my life.

In a lot of ways I feel more out of control now than I ever did when I was having the dreams.
And in a lot of ways I'm more worried about failing now than I ever was before.

I have no idea who I am some days.
I think I know who I want to be, but who can say for sure?
Most days I wish my life would move forward instead of being stuck the way it is now (or at least the way it feels now). I go through the motions, and people say I should change it.

That's just it, I don't know where to start.