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i have this image of who i want to be and what i want to be doing with my life.
not necessarily now but in a few years.
but i feel like i'm just passively letting things go by that could be great.
i've become slightly apathetic towards everything.
i wish i could love the way that i used to.
or the way i thought i used to.
i have no idea why i even write in this thing anymore.
all this stupid "teen angst" bullshit that is just created by myself
as some sort of excuse for my (oftentimes) miserable outlook.
will anyone ever live up to my ungodly expectations?
will i be happy again?
will i ever get out of my own way?
not necessarily now but in a few years.
but i feel like i'm just passively letting things go by that could be great.
i've become slightly apathetic towards everything.
i wish i could love the way that i used to.
or the way i thought i used to.
i have no idea why i even write in this thing anymore.
all this stupid "teen angst" bullshit that is just created by myself
as some sort of excuse for my (oftentimes) miserable outlook.
will anyone ever live up to my ungodly expectations?
will i be happy again?
will i ever get out of my own way?