That was just a dream...: Spam me PLEASE

[workingforwings]

.................. I need... I don't know. Cheering? Stability? Knowing I'm not completely alone in the world? And the chat isn't working for that for once?

Spam me, please.Don't fucking care what's said, just so long as it's being said, period

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[ceruleanblu]

You probably didn't expect a reply from me. But...I felt compelled to say something. I just hope that it's meaningful in some way.

You do mean something to me. We hardly ever talk, and we don't know each other that well, yet I still care. I read all your entries -- I really do, I don't skip over anyone on my f-list -- and I wish that I did know you better because I wish that I could do something to help, even if it's just a smile or a laugh or forgetting everything and feeling good for a moment.

From the few times we've 'spoken', I can honestly say that I really enjoy talking to you. And I seriously would like to get to know you better. I, too, feel like I have all these people on my f-list and I read their entries and maybe they read mine, but do I really know them? Do they know me? Do they even want to know me? I've been asking myself that last question about even the people I consider to be 'close friends' a lot lately.

I hate saying "I know how you feel" because none of us really do know for sure what another person is thinking or feeling. But I can certainly relate to and sympathize with some of what you're saying. I have a lot of 'friends' -- people I absolutely love and adore and couldn't live without, really. But I often question what I really mean to them. If they'd even notice or really care if I just disappeared and stopped talking to them.

This reply was so not supposed to be me just whining about all my insecurities, but I do want you to know that you're not alone. I know that you mean a lot to many, many people. And I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to (you have my AIM s/n, I believe). Because I really meant it when I said I'd like to get to know you better. All I can do is hope that you might let me. Even if it's bit by bit. And that offer to talk? It's good anytime.

[workingforwings]

I... gah, thank you, first off. That was... really nice to recieve.

I really enjoy talking to and care about you too, and I'd love to get to know you better. And for the record, I know I rarely comment, but I do read your journal quite often -- unless I do one of my week-long-don't-read-the-flist jaunts, in which case I pretty much don't read anyone's journal. *laughs*

I understand what you're saying and definitely can sympathise with you and relate to a lot of what you've said.

And definitely the next time I'm actually on a name I can talk on and I spot you, I'll be pouncing you. *smiles* And again: thank you. So much.

[ceruleanblu]

I'm glad. I just... that actually makes me feel better too, knowing that that even helped a little bit.

Yay for pouncing! I'll be sure to glomp you back! *giggle* And you're certainly welcome. Anytime. ♥

[workingforwings]

Ah, I've had that before. Quite often... which is why when I'm breakingest I actively seek out people to break on me... heh.

*giggles madly* All right then. *bounce* And the same goes for you, by the by.

[ceruleanblu]

Ha, I tend to do that too. Or I break my puppets. XD

Thanks. ^___^ It means a lot to me too, to know you care. So yes. I look forward to talking to you soon. <3