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I got back from Norfolk on sunday and am physically exghausted, not that it was hard work or anything coz norfolk is like the deadest land in england, but because i havent really stopped twitching since i left.I spent a day on my own getting lost in Norwich city centre which was good, apart from...i accidently stole this big purse thing from topshop, i have no idea what piece of mind i was in at the time, because i have never been forgotten to pay before!Sunday night i had a four hour rehearsal, where i learned how to do sign language,sweated myself silly dancing like and then went to a charity concert for breast cancer.
Ive spent allot of this summer in my room trying to pick up the energy from lying down in order to get up, its quite gay that this whole place i am at like, makes me do crazy stuff like cancel the invitation of reading, seeing erica(love of my life) and always say no to going out and seeing people that i enjoy being with, but it makes me feel odd and tired and frustrated and weak and just very sad really and so all i can really cope with is to keep myself focused on meeeeeeee and getting better again.I suppose its hard to explain or understand and i look rude which is awfully upsetting.The weather has gotten colder recently, and i love it, i can actually feel something for once, and it feels good to be warmer than something for a change.I love my bed so much.Ive been working on my room too which is blossoming.
Today i watched 'a street car named desire' which is one of my favorutie films ever, i could literally have paused the screen on Marlon Brando and left it there for days.So i start school next week which is exciting, but i am really scared, i think im scared that i wont like it, or will find it hard to fit in but im gunna give it my best shot.Ive got three plays to read before next week and an essay to write on Stanislavsky.I hope everyone has had/is having a wiked summer anyway because i probably havent seen you innit.It feels so good to breeeeeeeeeathe.
Ive spent allot of this summer in my room trying to pick up the energy from lying down in order to get up, its quite gay that this whole place i am at like, makes me do crazy stuff like cancel the invitation of reading, seeing erica(love of my life) and always say no to going out and seeing people that i enjoy being with, but it makes me feel odd and tired and frustrated and weak and just very sad really and so all i can really cope with is to keep myself focused on meeeeeeee and getting better again.I suppose its hard to explain or understand and i look rude which is awfully upsetting.The weather has gotten colder recently, and i love it, i can actually feel something for once, and it feels good to be warmer than something for a change.I love my bed so much.Ive been working on my room too which is blossoming.
Today i watched 'a street car named desire' which is one of my favorutie films ever, i could literally have paused the screen on Marlon Brando and left it there for days.So i start school next week which is exciting, but i am really scared, i think im scared that i wont like it, or will find it hard to fit in but im gunna give it my best shot.Ive got three plays to read before next week and an essay to write on Stanislavsky.I hope everyone has had/is having a wiked summer anyway because i probably havent seen you innit.It feels so good to breeeeeeeeeathe.