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I really dont know wots going on in my life any more. Just don't know wot i'm feeling or experiencing. Just dont know wot to do in certain situations. Things are so alien to me cos i havent done them before, thats why i'm so scared. I feel so fucked up, i just hate not being in control or confident enough. I want to be a strong confident person but its just not me, i never will be, thats wot makes me so upset. I need something good to happen to me. I'm still so sick and tired of being alone. I need someone to put it in perspective for me, for me to understand. I feel lost and alone, it scares me more and more.