Leaving
Im fed up. Completely and utterly fed up with the drama that constantly revolves around me here. So I'm leaving. My father is moving to Florida in a few weeks or months or whatever, and f he'll let me, I'm going with him. I'm tired of trying to deal with the things here, I want to wait until I graduate but I dont know if I can even wait that long. Why would I wanna spent one of the most memorable moments of my life with a bunch of people who either A. hate me or B. dont know i exist. If my mother wont let me leave with him well... than I'm just gonna find my own way out. I wont stay here. I promise that. It's not worth trying anymore, because everybody gave up trying for me. I'm so disturbed and hurt on the inside and there's nothing i can do to stop the pain. Every time I think something is getting better somebody has to go and pick at the healing wounds. One of these day it's going to kill me. Sometimes i wish it would, more often than I wish it wouldn't. My friends, my family, my whole life revolved around this big self image I had, of what I thought my life would be like at this age. I realized that nobodies perfect in any aspect but seriously, there are ways around dicking somebody over the way I get dicked. There are ways around it. Instead I'm here, completely fucked up and living a half-asses life. I need to get out of Hauppauge, and soon...
I'll finish writting this later...
I'll finish writting this later...