still alone
Things are getting better with me and Charles.. hopefully. but I still can't seem to find a reason to smile. what are friends anyway? and if I had them, than why am I still sititing here alone? I guess this is what life is made of. Tear and regret. I listen everyday to all the drama in peoples lives. Who's fucking who, and who fucked who over. I just want to be normal here, have a normal live surrounded by people who actually want me around them. Not people who pretend to like me and relly can't stand to be around me. I know you all talk behind my back and avoid me like cancer. But it's not fair. At least tell me that I'm not welcome, being lied to is the only thing I can't handel...