Gone
I sit crouched in a ball hugging my knees to my chest. This is the only way I find comfort in my life. I rub the scars on my wrist as if the wounds still hurt me. I am all alone in this world. At a time suicide looked like the only answer. Now I am older and realized suicide is a cowards way out. It;s not that I want to die, I'm just bored with life.
I sit across from Angelo. He's my doctor in rehab. He knows. He knows what I'm feeling and how drugs seemed the only way life would open up. He knows I was only truely happy when I was shooting up. I just want to Disapeer into the night sky with the diamonds that I'll never reach, soft white horses dance around the moon as I inhale the bitter air. Bitterness consumes my mind when i think about my life. It wasn't how it is in movies. When the girl gets the guy and the world loves each other and everything always gets better. Reality is a fucking bitch. I just want to fall into oblivion...Fuck the world...this is a one man show.
I sit across from Angelo. He's my doctor in rehab. He knows. He knows what I'm feeling and how drugs seemed the only way life would open up. He knows I was only truely happy when I was shooting up. I just want to Disapeer into the night sky with the diamonds that I'll never reach, soft white horses dance around the moon as I inhale the bitter air. Bitterness consumes my mind when i think about my life. It wasn't how it is in movies. When the girl gets the guy and the world loves each other and everything always gets better. Reality is a fucking bitch. I just want to fall into oblivion...Fuck the world...this is a one man show.