may week 4, jff Temptation

[someoneingrey]

I have given in
to the temptation
to believe
that you can love me
the way I want,
need,
and deserve
to be loved.

I have given in
to the temptation
to forget the bitter taste
your absence has left.
Because forgiveness is easier
than bittersweet memories
etched into who I am.

I have given in
to the temptation
to let you back into my life
when history says
you aren't worth the time
or the effort most days,
let alone nights.

I have given in
to the temptation
to believe that you are worthy
of my trust,
with only shreds of proof
that it might actually
be true.

I have given in
to the temptation
that is flesh on flesh
in the dark of night
because I was too drunk
to focus in the light.
Another night,
another room,
and the feeling
that we've been here before.

I have given in
to the temptation
that you are capable of change,
of love that matters,
and conversations
that happen when it's relevant,
as opposed to
ten years in the making.

I have given in
to the temptation
and now I will live
with the consequences,
whatever they may be.
Only time will tell
if resistance
would have served me better.

I have given in
to the temptation
to dream a little dream
that I know
will never come true.

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