July 26, 2007 (Could There Be a Better Title to a Journal Entry?)
Well, I'm mentally exhausted and can't stand the reality of time. Why does it torture me so much? Fuck it!
Well, I have only two weeks to move out of this apartment. I'm not ready. I'm not even mentally ready. I haven't found a definate place to move into yet either. I'm too tired to even think about it. But I need to find somewhere soon or I'm really going to be homeless. I've become too comfortable where I am, I guess. Although I know I'm going to hate it again once everyone moves in before the new school year.
Ah well. Time is of the enemy and I'm just a pawn in it's fate. That's fine. Be it as it must. Be let me relax for a couple of days, please? OMG! I just need to relax for a short while. THIS IS TOO DAMN MUCH!!!!!
Well, I thought mostly of posting an entry just to express the 19-year-anniversary that today marks. Tonight, I may light a candle in his memory. I should go get one specifically for him and let it burn until it burns itself out. Yeah, I may just go do that. Miss you Pa!
Ok, before I close, yes, I'm still in financial hardship, but things have gotten alot better. I sold some DVDs. I also got a loan from my Credit Union. I've also been selling on eBay. And I have less than one month left before my real money comes in. I think I can make it. I think I can hold out. I just hope that my financial situation won't prevent me from getting an apartment. I have only about 100.00 in my account right now. I can't make a deposit and first month's rent until AFTER I move in. I've spoken with one potential complex about it and they said they'd work with me. Question is, will others should I decide to move somewhere else?
Time will tell... As it laughs at me now, in the end, I hope to be the one with the last laugh.
Well, I have only two weeks to move out of this apartment. I'm not ready. I'm not even mentally ready. I haven't found a definate place to move into yet either. I'm too tired to even think about it. But I need to find somewhere soon or I'm really going to be homeless. I've become too comfortable where I am, I guess. Although I know I'm going to hate it again once everyone moves in before the new school year.
Ah well. Time is of the enemy and I'm just a pawn in it's fate. That's fine. Be it as it must. Be let me relax for a couple of days, please? OMG! I just need to relax for a short while. THIS IS TOO DAMN MUCH!!!!!
Well, I thought mostly of posting an entry just to express the 19-year-anniversary that today marks. Tonight, I may light a candle in his memory. I should go get one specifically for him and let it burn until it burns itself out. Yeah, I may just go do that. Miss you Pa!
Ok, before I close, yes, I'm still in financial hardship, but things have gotten alot better. I sold some DVDs. I also got a loan from my Credit Union. I've also been selling on eBay. And I have less than one month left before my real money comes in. I think I can make it. I think I can hold out. I just hope that my financial situation won't prevent me from getting an apartment. I have only about 100.00 in my account right now. I can't make a deposit and first month's rent until AFTER I move in. I've spoken with one potential complex about it and they said they'd work with me. Question is, will others should I decide to move somewhere else?
Time will tell... As it laughs at me now, in the end, I hope to be the one with the last laugh.