Mar 24, 2005 22:48
1: the meeting of self
spiral staircase descent
heaven sent scent sends
arms around backs spines
salute the shivering pine
tree glee tanglings
out to parking lot
emptiness and the
familiarity of dash
calm
a perfect language of
silent fingers
gestures gush hush rush of
blood under starlit
car warmth we infinite
finders finding forever
on the road
lips turning stoplights
green from red
to arrive
home
sampson and babes
iron and wine
smile goodnight
2: waking in beds of self
a dream full
filled by opening eyes
to faces bathed in sunlight
shadows of the blinds tickling
diamond minds trickling down
bodhi-bodies like the
serenity of sweat
bus ride butt cold but gold
en light end
beginning
trembling into
book store warmth where alan
watts waits to be read
by cherry blossoms on
the floor
3: unexpected uncoverings of self
to the malt shop
"you can tip hear"
oh,
BLUES CAT WITH ATTITUDE
tip tap for tips and smiles
shaking head at dead
keys yet poundin' on
hook-handed cork-fingered slammin'
the low end
taptapTAPtapTAPTAPtaptapTAPTAPTAPtapTAPtaptapTAPTAPTAPtapTAPtapTAP
BOOM
bearded beaded beaten eyes
exuding the calm of a
rhododendron bloom
fallen in autumn
plucking keys like strings
careful jinglings of
nickels and pennies in
penniless pockets
waving one with
the waves within
pizzaz jazz baby jazz
blues ain't got no
place in you
bop bop be bop
beat hopping harmonica
(trains)
along
hands flailing like big city
catholic statuesque nakedness
succumbing to the boundless
life in the whispering streets and
minds
divine
bliss
of those passing by
suitcase stripes
stain glass flow
blue through the green to the gold
take me captain
outpour spontaneous and
blow man blow
the blues surround you man
but you ain't blue -
you're bliss.
blow on man
be the wind
kissing the trees with your
gentle breeze
yours truly,
a forest on its knees
where are you wine
the sunset smiles
and
we run
hand in hand
out of breath
out of love
out of life
out of death
into bliss
into this
efflorescence
4: walking planks of self
the bridge
ascension the tension of wires and beams
ashbery spreading smiles gleaming across
cheery cherry-hued cherubic cheeks
(where minneapolis finds my love)
winding path leading
wanderlust feet to
sculpture garden swinging
under
stars
each step echoing
each roar of the passing
car
is
a self i forgot i
knew, but each roar
is them saying,
hey, i remember you.
the swing is our breathing
the plane - now
it's overhead
the plain - we
swallowed up by the infinite
i met you yesterday. wow. no, i should have said,
"yesterday i remembered i knew you
all along."
all is one.
things just feel...
in place. messiah.
i: all there is is...
beauty
love
perfection
we: BLISS (synchronistic)
she: ONE
i: endless
the fireworks were for you
because they are you
exploding in front of me
now
now
now
now
who are you?
everyone
walking home to everywhere
for home walks with us
beside ourselves with happiness
our smiles blinding the streetlights
our bliss paralyzing the imagined
knife fights and sending sleeping
sparrows to foreverflight in
the nevernight
that was and is
eternity and eternity is
an empty bag of jay's
potato chips
carelessly tossed to
the ground
LEAP
for joy
for all
is kissed
by the
infinite
5: to drink and eat self with gregory
sipping tea and watching
waiting for dough to rise
from the dead depths of
the midwest
reading corso aloud:
i saw an angel today
without wings
with human smile
and nothing to say
recalling the hours
passed in the
silence of eyes
peering into windows
of self, pupillus
trembling tears of
trance dance tranquility
transcendence
ascension never been this
high
and the crust is
done delicious
hot n now
swoon n sigh
6: chinese departures of self
shower shower show her
eyes shining eyes mines
in flame flabergasted gardenia
delights doled up and rolled
up like hipster jeans and
hey let's buy some
yes
records for a dollar a
pop
and cop a feel of a
delicate oak tree
intricacy and
stop
sign kiss shine bliss
look at old dresses and
buy a slanted mug for
my mom - perfect
and where we gonna
eat baby maybe that cafe
but it's closed so close
is next door chinese
some dragon that hired
a really outstanding
waitress in terms of
lethargy
but the food is good
much better than the
fortunes fortunately we
realize the perfection in the
animal print t-shirt overheard
conversation of never
being in an accident with another
car (ellipsis)
except twice!
laughter
laughter
bliss
bliss
chose a bottle
of syrah for the
art of its label
and hit the road
hands intertwined
like the vines climbing
buildings on streets all
new to me
from the well of some
inward spring
shh shh shake that ass
girl
shh shh shake that ass
haha blah blah bloom blooom booom booom
all there is is
laughter
7. tipsy self analysis bliss paralysis
corkless not
popping just
rotten smell missing pinot
noir sweet scent but pouring
into glasses regardless
kierkegaard toes
under
orange light sweep me
up
rose
petal
pastless are we
futureless are we
WOW NOW
puzzle pieces
puddles of
love pouring from portals
of the infinite painting
continents on bedspread
canvas with the clever
hush-touches of
bliss-brushes
fingerpaint rushes of
heat
heart
startstopstart
beat beat
beat beat
beat beat
beat beat
pop pop
pop pop
pop corn
in two
(ONE)
in to
the morn
8. chai chair rice rides of self
pizza levitates in laughter
lantern lit little lashes
on cheek
under eyes
sipping chai or
hot cocoa go go
like walking to
florida
like talking to
self awareness
nessicles dripping
in warm careless
dripdrop ripples
smiling in swirling
pools of soul
windows or mirrors
we are
we are
we are
hands pressed
like flowers in books covered in the dust of
timeless
ness
fingertips kissing the bliss between
bodies
in air
in hair
brushed out of face
in moments
in love
LOVE
ONE VOICE REJOICE!
around the bend
bliss bend extend
ing arms like sun
flowers lifting
eyes to heaven
iris lily
ukelele
lilac lull full
of lush hush rush
of blood of love
two bodies
two thoughts
one voice
rejoice
make a joyful noise!
9. winged self on the bareback of a brittle buffalo
meeting mom all
smiles and hugs and
huge grinning pill
popping prescience
if the moans didn't give
it away, the common use of
cough drops will, uh...
alert the media
we still managed to do
it though, 'twas our
only comfort in our hard
times
merlot, merlot, where did you go?
catch phrase frothing
bubbles are we
explosions in the eyes
of bathtub vagabonds
and whirlpool wanderers
wading and waiting and
seizing the day like
some well-worn cliche
the clarity of clever
teary-eyed happy view-finders
found and flung to floor
twelve years ago - in a trice
in a trancedance of laughing
faces and racing hearts
beat beat the year
blink blink the here
the now
the wow
the wailing waves of wonderous whimsy washing over me
the wanderlust lilies lapping up ponderdust daffodils
dozing through pollenated
thrills threading yesterday
through tomorrow
to weave
today
to say
all is well
is
to articulate
the inevitable
the unshakable
the undeniable
the unmistakable
truth
dharma is a golden tooth thrown out with the
trash
ever-triumphant trunk-faced fever shakers
shiver the night away
swimming the rivers of
foresight foreseen
in between the
night and
twilight
try as i
might, i will
never fully forget the neverending nuances of nascence
for night gives birth to
sunlight
and i
smile
and she
smiles
and we
smile
these
miles are mountains whose peaks
we've reached, screaming
LOVE LOVE LOVE
life
itself a perfect pinnacle
so you cynical and muddy-eyed clairvoyant
idiot-savants and debutantes,
i challenge thee:
step into the bliss-drenched dreams of
eternity and fail to see
the love-soaked serenity
permeating
everything
fail to smile
fail to beguile the
bliss-buffalo heard
in the words of
ferlinghetti:
the mind dances
when the body lets it
and when the body cannot
the mind dances within
but sometimes they move together
and together sway
and fly together
and dance and sing
and then it is indeed
an enchanting thing
then recalling my love,
she who on memo pad paper
wrote her love a
note:
______ equals beauty.
you are what it is
it is what you are -
everything.
fail to smile, i repeat
listen to the
beat beat
beat beat
beat beat
succeed
complete
10. last beginningendless days of endless self
complete as antique ticks
or lack thereof
pocket watches stop sick
of time's charade
simply existent in
the moment
holy
wow
holy
now
holy
holy
holy
holistic little lists of everything
that look like this:
ONE
and the wheels spin
away
always
moving
towards
never
away
always
a way
awaiting
return
always
burning
a match to set the world afire
always
turning
with the second hand clothes of claustrophobic flame
always
remaining
jubilant lights tap dancing to
frame by frame fruition
the decay of definition
the nascence of intuition
the smile shuts the book
look, see
eternity
in eyes that shook
heads and ground
instead of shutting out
the sound of siddharthic
bell bliss - sadagati
11.
12. self absorbed by lucidity
smile
miles are minutes and minutes are endless blissbliss kisskiss i think we're gonna go run off and get married and run down the streets holding hands and shooting bliss out our eyes and bring the world to its knees and make them all realize - HEY MAN ALL REALLY IS WELL AND PERFECT AND AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL. and it would be one of those quaker weddings with us before a large assembly of amazing people just looking into each other's eyes and everyone silent just letting the moment wash over us, only speaking when felt moved by the ALL/ONE/INFINITE/ETERNAL and then after a few hours of this BOOM we're married and turning the room golden sunflower blooming bliss kiss kiss kiss the bride and ride on home man ride on and always keep on riding on and on and on like the subtle scratching of this newfound simon & garfunkel record begging to be turned back over to side 1 and man oh man man i'm rambling and roaring inside one with the tide of everything ready to just flow and go go go and thoughts of - fix car - sublease? - what about stuff? - holy holy holy shit - job? - rent? - all those meaningless monetary worries and fears a result of all those yearning (learning, now burning) years that i know matter not at all and yet still sort of whisper hey paul whatcha gonna do huh huh huh whatcha gonna do and i say hey man, i've got nothing to dooooooo tooooday but smile and so i smile and she smiles and we hug and wake into infinite oneness like the lucid dream i had last night man it was amazing -
boy on horseback in middle of night he was showing me how it's done boy - i'm on horse of my own slightly behind him as we slowly trot down the dirt road of dreams over a wooden speed bump and coming to the next one the boy disappears and i realize over that speed bump is nothingeverything for it is the pit of the infinite and i hesitate - hey what should i do - and then i just do it just to do it man and i'd been there floating in the air just not falling and then i let go man and i fall fall fall so fast and fly on by past that falling precious guide boy and fall forever man timeless and see a vast body of water steadily approaching and man i open my eyes and the sky oh the sky the entire horizon (her eyes on fire) is burning purple and pink and swirling like seeing myself in her eyes and swooning and then CRASH i hit the water and wow i'm still falling down through the water though no wetness only warmth and softness and holy shit man this is heaven and it's right here and i realize i'm dreaming man i'm dreaming!! and immediately i'm seeking seeking vanessa calling her name and it's dark and i'm running through midnight parking lots leap-running like a cheetah man so fast gotta find her man vanessa where are you and two of the most beautiful blondish brunettes my eyes ever seen appear before me and man i just rush on by - i gotta gotta gotta find that vanessa man - that girl is bliss AND KNOWS IT and i gotta find her and there she is and wearing red coat with fur hood like the one i didn't know she actually owns and i approach her and exclaim vanessa vanessa i'm dreaming!! and she doesn't want to listen it seems and i echo vanessa vanessa i'm dreeeeeeaming!! and she wants nothing to do with it (this itself an echo of dreams two and three days old) and i say vanessa why won't you share this with me? and i'm like to myself in my head, hey, i'm controlling this and then FLASH SATORI BOOM like lightning i just KNOW vanessa's acting like this because she had an ex or something seek her out in lucid dream before and he was mean to her and doing harm and man what
do i do - i
just hold her beautiful shining face in my hands and smile into her eyes and watch the reflection spread across her face like sunlight over a rooftop or treetop or through shades or blinds and man we're shining so bright and we embrace in a hug and wow man WOW i wake up gasping for air and crying in happiness and oneness and wow man this is what life is this is what life is and you've got it right now and so do i and so does she and so does everyone but man - WE KNOW IT and i guess that's what i'm trying to express here - just all of this, man. it's all bursting into bloom right in our linguistic hands and firefly fingers the sort of dreamlike lingering of light in the dark - THAT'S US MAN, ne'er apart from it at all - one with it all and josiah man i'm asking you what to do and i know what to do but i think i need to hear it from you because i know you're my reflection but you're one of the greatest and most perfect reflections of life that i've seen man and man i keep saying man a whole lot holy man man holy man shaman am i, amen. and keep smiling man i can feel it all the way over here for distance ain't no more than a fallen tear laughing all the way to the snowy ground showing shining shining shinging ghisgnsighsdg singing sighing sighning signing and fucking shining shining shining all is well man looking forward to seeingreadinghearing you encapsulated in this oncoming ellipsis ...
-holy holy paul paul holy holy bliss bliss
boise idaho
is a go go
blow man blow
you know
all
is
one
love love love
above below
bliss bellows
kissing the weep
ing willows
good night
good night