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well hello all. i just thought it would be nice for me to emerge from what ever i am into and let yall know i am alive. that is about all i can say for that right now. i keep busy for the most part working with J and c0lt. if you need to get in touch with me i am in pretty much the same spot all the time. ring c0lt if you got something to say.
it has taken some time but i am starting to get used to this part of the world. i say this like in this new exotic land because it is what it feels like. i rest my head at night to wake with more thoughts then before. i had people to share them with but not those involved. honest at time i feel like the earth is flat, and i am dangling my legs off the edge like a child sitting at the edge of a pier. i stop to gaze at the stars at night because their beauty stuns me. i had a site in my head everytime i stopped. now i wonder if i should continue with such a thought. i've closed my eyes to see a smile and now it is beginning to fade.
i have stopped to consider my place in life and the only answer that comes back is "not here". all i know is this isnt it. no on some else chair. not in some else borrowed bed. i want something of my own. i want my own home. i havent had a home since i was 13. that was the last time i felt like i was some where for life. i had a friend that we planned on raising kids together. i had a friend for life. i hvent seen him in so long that i hardly remember his face. i had a friend i conquer the world with whom i never saw her face i miss chat with because she was from a different place. i have had friends and all rest but the last time i had a home i was in such a different place. if you ask me if i am happy i tell you i am alive. i have seen better day but and i seen those that made me cry. i feel like this time but at least i am alive.
ohwell back to my old saying. "I am to stupid to Die." so yeah around if you need me. or around to hear you cry. call c0lt to find me. until then ill be around probably asking why?
it has taken some time but i am starting to get used to this part of the world. i say this like in this new exotic land because it is what it feels like. i rest my head at night to wake with more thoughts then before. i had people to share them with but not those involved. honest at time i feel like the earth is flat, and i am dangling my legs off the edge like a child sitting at the edge of a pier. i stop to gaze at the stars at night because their beauty stuns me. i had a site in my head everytime i stopped. now i wonder if i should continue with such a thought. i've closed my eyes to see a smile and now it is beginning to fade.
i have stopped to consider my place in life and the only answer that comes back is "not here". all i know is this isnt it. no on some else chair. not in some else borrowed bed. i want something of my own. i want my own home. i havent had a home since i was 13. that was the last time i felt like i was some where for life. i had a friend that we planned on raising kids together. i had a friend for life. i hvent seen him in so long that i hardly remember his face. i had a friend i conquer the world with whom i never saw her face i miss chat with because she was from a different place. i have had friends and all rest but the last time i had a home i was in such a different place. if you ask me if i am happy i tell you i am alive. i have seen better day but and i seen those that made me cry. i feel like this time but at least i am alive.
ohwell back to my old saying. "I am to stupid to Die." so yeah around if you need me. or around to hear you cry. call c0lt to find me. until then ill be around probably asking why?